Christmas '11

I can finally sit and let out a deep breath and take some time to reflect on Christmas and the coming year.  Many people send out letters with the Christmas cards, and as I thought about what I would write if I were to send out a letter, I realized that most of the significant and notable happenings of the past year have revolved around Church or Church-related activities:

• One of the areas I feel blessed to have experienced and be a part of, is being on Selection Committee.    What an amazing experience to see the Holy Spirit working in selecting elders and members of the committee.  It gave me insight into some of the passages in Acts when the leaders were chosen in the Early Church.
• Another amazing experience was the Journeys of Paul Tour.   What a privilege to be able to travel to Greece and Turkey with my Pastor and the group from my Church.   
• And then studying through the Book of Acts.   Not only did the trip help supplement the study by helping me to visualize parts of Paul's Missionary Journeys; but, I really felt like I got to "know" the Apostle Paul a lot better.   And, I've learned much from the example of the Early Church.
• God has given me opportunities to serve and help the needy, an answer to previous prayer requests - my class did the Yes House Thanksgiving outreach and has completed another year of serving at COA.   Just last night, we served dinner and passed out Christmas Goodies packages.   Learning from the experiences of last year, it went quite smoothly and we didn't have too much left-overs, while still being able to be generous in giving seconds (and some thirds).   We served ham with pineapple (learned to glaze at COA rather than the night before to avoid the glaze spilling over during transport - however, in the future, should use more brown sugar) [10 10 lb hams at $1.50 per pound; were able to get 20 slices per ham], mashed potatoes (these were instant ones, but were well received), green beans with cubed ham pieces from the edges and cream of mushroom (next time, should reserve the liquid and only pour in as much as needed - it was a little too watery, causing me to have to add flour)  [8 cans of green beans, 2 cans of cream of mushroom - one ladle per serving], and Hawaiian bread rolls.  For the Christmas packages, we again used the brown paper bags decorated by the kids at church; this time, instead of punching holes and tying ribbons, we just put on gift tag stickers - in the future, it is important to buy the larger stickers so that they would stay on (the smaller ones would fall off or  require tape to keep the bag closed).   We put in an orange, a "Meaning of Christmas" tract, candy canes (to fit the message), and a combination of cookies, candy bars, lollipops, baked sweet bread,etc.   Throughout the year, we were also able to give out some Bibles, and I trust that God was able to use the messages.

There were, however, also some challenges through the year - my mom's illness, having to deal with the rental, weight of responsibilities, etc.   Yet, I do feel that I have grown through them all; and I know that God was with me through them.

Looking towards the New Year, I'm excited that I found my verse for the year associated with my area of focus on PRAYER.   In reading through the Book of Luke in response to the encouragement from my Asst Pastor, the verse stood out as I read it last night:  "But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed." (Luke 5:16).   This verse came in the context of Jesus in the midst of the demands of His ministry.    As I read the verse, I saw additional important reasons why I needed to focus on prayer - following Christ's example, spending time with the Father, and gaining strength, guidance, and realignment in the midst of busy-ness, maybe even overwhelming busy-ness.   I felt that I could relate to that verse; because there are times when I just feel this great need to go to a quiet place alone, in order to spend time in prayer to God.

Repentance

After the series on Evangelism in my class this month, there have been several feedback discussions on whether or not Repentance is required for Salvation.

As Paul said, he was "Solemnly testifying to both Jews and Greeks of repentance toward God and faith in our Lord Jesus Christ" (Acts 20:21)

The differing perspective from these other people in the class is that, as John 3:16 states, BELIEF in Christ is the only requirement for salvation, that Christ died for the sins of the world for all time, and we shouldn't impose "Repentance" as a work that is required.

However, I see BELIEF as encompassing REPENTANCE.     In order to believe in the Truths of Christ, one must recognize that He is God, that He died for our sins on the cross, that He had victory over sin and resurrected, and that He is Lord.    I don't see how a person could believe these things and not repent (turn from sin and turn to God).

Yes, Christ died for the sins of the world; but, if a person did not need to repent in order to be "born again" (or "born from above"), then all would already be saved.   Regeneration does not come until we believe; and regeneration should imply repentance for we cannot still have our old view of sin.

Sin is why Christ died on the cross.  It is what caused our separation from God and what incurs God's wrath.  So, I don't see how a person can have their relationship restored with God, without repenting.   I also don't see repentance as a "work".    It is just part of believing, just as I see that submitting to Christ as Lord is part of believing, but it is not a "work".

As I have done more research in this area, this is actually just the Lordship Salvation vs non-Lordship Salvation or Free Grace debate.  Respected theologians and teachers are on both sides of the debate (John MacArthur, RC Sproul, John Piper, etc on Lordship Salvation; and Bill Bright, Charles Ryrie, Hodges, and probably Chuck Swindoll on the Free Grace).   So, I don't expect there to be an unequivocal resolution for the discussion with those from class.

After discussions with my Pastor, the clearest statement in Scripture is: "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast." (Ephesians 2:8-9).    So, it is FAITH that saves us.   However, repentance is an evidence of faith; so any authentic saving faith should be accompanied by repentance.

Unwrapping Christmas

In this "Unwrapping Christmas" sermon series, my pastor wanted us to focus on the gift, rather than the glitter and color of the ribbon, wrappings, and box.   Sunday's message was from Luke 1:26-38, the story of Mary who said "Yes" to God:   "May it be to me as you have said" (vs 38).

Her life was able to be changed:  rumors, gossip, etc from others; view of her betrothal and marriage; and bearing the Holy One, Son of God.

But, also in this passage is the wonderful reminder that "Nothing is impossible with God" (vs 37)

To me, this was an encouragement to stand firm in saying "Yes" to God, even when it is not what is expected or when it will change my life radically.   Similar to the message in the movie "Courageous" which I just watched, we must have the courage to stand firm in our resolutions to God.

So, Christmas is now just 4 days away.  While I had a slow start to Christmas because of all that was happening with my mom, I've been able to get "caught up" - the cards are sent, the gifts are wrapped, and I'm prepared for the Christmas packages for our COA Outreach.  Of course, we still actually have to prepare to food and put together the packages; and serve the food and pass out the gifts today and tomorrow.   And, there's dress rehearsal and serving on the AV Team for the Christmas services.   And, I have to marinate, cook, and carve the turkey for Christmas Dinner.   But, these are all just part of Christmas; and I don't feel like I'm over busy.    In the next few days leading up to Christmas, I will try to put aside time to really contemplate what an amazing gift Christ gave us - the gift of salvation.

Unanimous

Once again it was unanimous.   This time we were voting for new members for the Selection Committee.   What a privilege to be part of this experience.     When I looked at the list of people being interviewed, I knew that it was a great group of people; and figured that we would have a difficult time deciding.  However, after the interviews were over, it was clear in my mind who were the best ones to select.  And then to hear everyone else voice the same views during the discussions, I once again knew that I was experiencing the work of the Holy Spirit.

There were a few things that stood out during the interviews.   It was clear how important it was for the person to be a person of prayer.   This reminded me of the Book of Acts, and the strong prayer life of the Early Church leaders.  Also, one person articulated how this was one of the most important committees to be part of; and my Pastor emphasized how one wrong choice in an elder could cause major problems within the Church.   The person also mentioned that she felt that elders should be PWW men:   men of Prayer, who were in the Word, and sought the Will of God.   It was neat to hear that many talked about how they wanted to grow through serving on the committee; and that if God willed it, He would help them find the time to fulfill their obligations.  It was clear that they all tried to seek God's Will.

I am pleased with God's choice for the two new members.  I look at myself and feel inadequate; but, that reminds me that feelings of inadequacy just help me to turn to God more.

Rushing Headlong into Christmas

I'm just rushing headlong right into Christmas, and there has not been much "slowing down" or "catching up".     However, despite the whirlwind busy-ness, there have been times of fun and experiences of the joy of the season.

My community small group had our Christmas party, and since this is such a fun great group of people, we always have a good time together.   We had dinner and our normal White Elephant; but, we also heard a nice Christmas story and played Pictionary using Christmas Carol and Song titles.

My class will be doing our monthly outreach at COA, and initial plans for the Christmas Goodies package we'll be passing out to them with dinner are underway.

Yesterday, I was able to help fill-in for one of the AV Team members who got sick.

I even had time to watch a few Christmas movies:  A Princess for Christmas, The Christmas Clause, A Christmas Kiss, 12 Wishes of Christmas, The Family Holiday, Eve's Christmas,and Desperately Seeking Santa.  They were all nice Christmas shows; but, my favorites were A Christmas Kiss and A Princess for Christmas.   Both were really sweetly romantic; and ultimately placed value on solid qualities and character.

And I heard a pretty funny joke:   What do you call a person who has a fear of Santa?    A Clause-trophobic :-)

Also the Figure Skating Grand Prix season concluded with the Finals.   Davis and White displayed their championship consistency once again and won the gold in Ice Dance.

I still need to do cards and wrap gifts.   Hopefully, I'll be able to get to that this week.   And, I'm glad that my brothers will be hosting the Christmas dinner this year.   I hope that it will be a time of blessing.

Christmas is Here Already?

Being physically wiped out, my thoughts on Christmas right now are, "Wait, I'm not quite ready yet."    This is one of the busiest times of the year, and I'm trying to balance all of it along with taking care of my mom.    Actually, when I look at things, I'm not doing too badly..... I've put up Christmas decorations (though less than usual), gone to the Women's Christmas Event with the purpose of running the powerpoint, "thought" about Christmas gifts, and I have my class directory updated ready for sending cards.  I guess what's been left out is "downtime"; and that is why I feel so tired out.

At least someone else is teaching my class right now on an Evangelism series.  Yesterday's lesson was an emphasis that the LAW points out our need for GRACE.    We don't know that we have sinned until we understand that we have transgressed God's LAW.

And, I appreciate Pastor Terry's sermon yesterday, a reminder that the theme of Christmas, and the whole Bible really, is SALVATION.    It is interesting that Isaiah 49:6b "I will also make you a light for the Gentiles, that my salvation may reach to the ends of the earth"; shows that in Acts, when we are called to be HIS witnesses to the ends of the earth; this was God's plan of salvation from the beginning.  The Pastor challenged us to read through the Book of Luke during this Christmas Season.

At the Women's Event, it turned out that the speaker, Danna Demetre, had a remote that worked to click through her presentation; so, I didn't have to do anything.  But, they still gave me a nice "Thank You" gift of chocolates with Bible verses stuck to them, in a decorated glass jar with a candle holder topper.  Add to that, my name was also drawn in the raffle and I received an angel ornament.  I've been telling people that this was, in my friend's words, "a hug from God."     I guess He knew I needed it.   And what stood out most in the speaker's message was the reminder that "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." (James 1:17)    Just as Jesus came at Christmas in the form of a Baby in the manger, God's gifts often do come in unexpected "wrapping".   Nevertheless, all His gifts are GOOD and PERFECT.   The speaker also talked about rubber balls (things that keep us busy) vs glass balls (things that are essential, related to our minds, bodies, and relationships).   In the midst of the busyness, it is important to focus on the priorities, as illustrated by the story of Mary and Martha in Luke 10:38-42.

My other friend's Christmas CD came out; and the cover was decorated by artwork from another friend.  It's beautiful and sounds great; and will be a good Christmas gift this year.

After going to the worship meeting yesterday in preparation for Christmas; I've decided that I may take a break from running the projector this year for Christmas Eve and Christmas.  Unless they end up really needing someone, I do not plan on volunteering.

One thing I do want to note, is that in preparing non-solid foods for my mom; I've been experimenting with various "recipes".     I've made a variety of turkey, chicken, ham, and beef broth with different kinds of herbs, spices, and vegetables.   I've made pea soup and many different forms of potato-based soups (modified beef stew, potato-spinach, potato-garlic,etc).    Basically, I make the stock, drain the broth and then cook it with cubed potatoes (and spinach or garlic) till soft, and then puree.   I've also made oatmeal with fruits (banana, applesauce, etc) as well as with broth (it comes out tasting a lot like porridge).    Also, I've made Asian style soups (broth with egg-drop or extra soft tofu).     I'm considering doing a liquid diet myself; since lately, these have actually been more tasty and appealing than solid foods sometimes.

I will make more of an effort to stop and reflect on Christmas; and will take up the challenge to read through Luke (which will be interesting, after having finished Acts, as Book II of Luke).   And, I actually already have my area of focus for next year:  PRAYER.     I know that I need to have a stronger prayer life and to be able to be more articulate and comfortable in my ability to pray in corporate settings.   And, I have the Early Church believers to serve as examples of  prayer.

Yes House Thanksgiving

I entrust the Yes House Thanksgiving outreach into God's Hands, and trust that He has used it for His Plans, even if we may not be able to see all the ways.

It was nice being able to spend Thanksgiving cooking with a couple of my friends from the class; and it was wonderful to see how the outreach was a whole class event, with people praying and making financial contributions, and also dropping by throughout the day to provide food for the pantry.

For Thanksgiving Dinner, we made:

• Roast Turkey (used BBQ sauce marinade with onion and garlic; roasted breast-side down in a bag the first half; flipped and then opened up the bag the last half) - turned out fairly moist and tasty
• Glazed Ham - sliced and dressed with pineapple and glaze - turned out okay (may be better to have left the thicker glaze; since the ham juices really diluted the glaze)
• Stuffing - one of the other ladies made this in the crock pot; it was good, but, utilized a lot of work and ingredients
• Sweet Potato Casserole - boiled, peeled, and mashed; then seasoned (used brown sugar instead of honey) - this is like a "staple" now; but what made it nicer was that the ladies arranged the marshmallows beautifully, which enhanced the presentation
• Mashed Potatoes - peeled, cubed, boiled, mashed, then mixed with milk and garlic.   It turned out really well, creamy and fluffy
• Green Beans - just simply pan fried with olive oil, onion, salt and pepper; for some reason, the green beans wouldn't soften, but was fine
• Corn - canned corn seasoned with butter, paprika, cayenne pepper, onion, garlic, salt, and pepper - this is a simple but tasty dish
• Gravy - used turkey drippings and added flour and corn starch - went well with the mashed potatoes
• Cranberry Sauce - boiled cranberries and added brown sugar - the brown sugar gave it a nice taste that wasn't there with honey
• Hawaiian Rolls, pumpkin, and apple pie

All the food turned out really well.  I hope that it was a blessing to those whom it was cooked for.  One of the things that was neat, was that I could see some of the kids wanting to spend time with us in the kitchen.   A couple of the older boys expressed their appreciation for the food and were fun to interact with.   Also, my mom was able to share with the nurses at the hospital that I would come pick her up after I finished, and many of them commented about how good it is to be able to give back and to help the community.

However, there were also a lot of lessons learned.    It was quite disappointing that only less than half of the women who lived in the house were there.   There was so much food.    If we do this again, here are some things that I would do differently:

• Would only have turkey (didn't need the ham, which was also 3x the cost)
• Would cut the food in half   (even with 5 women and 7 children; plus about 5 workers; next time, I would just plan for 10 people rather than 20 - it seems that 1/2 lb turkey per person would be good enough - and we can just count the adults, since the children wouldn't eat that much)
• If I kept two vegetables, would cut the portions in half; so, if planning for 10 people, with two vegetables, can do 5 servings of each (b/c people would put 1/2 the amount on their plates if they take both)
• I'd go with a simpler stuffing recipe, with less prep work
• Would not make hot apple cider.   The residents seemed only to be happy with the Martinelli's; I hope the kids were able to get the juice boxes.
• We ended up having ham sandwiches for lunch; though I forgot the cheese and vegetables that were in the fridge.    Next time, I could figure out something similar based on what is cooked at the time.

Well, it was a learning experience.   And while there were some disappointments and it was a LOT of work put into what seemed like too much for the circumstance; I just trust that God will use it, for our hearts and motives were right, serving him and loving the needy in the community.

Straw that Breaks the Camel's Back

Sometimes I feel like that camel in the picture, and now is one of those times....

My mom is back in the hospital, which indicates that the doctors did not fix the true source of the bleeding last time.  I place her into God's Hands for there is no better place for her to be.  However, it is still disheartening to have gone through everything the last time, thinking she was on the road to recovery; only to find that we have to go through it all again.   And this time, there are some additional things to deal with as well. I just continue to trust God to work all things together for good.

I also have had all the normal things to take care of as well - class, AV, search committee, work, home, etc.   And on top of that, I committed to organizing the Thanksgiving Dinner for the Yes House as well, which has required a lot of planning, shopping, administering, etc.   For awhile, I had already felt on the verge of being overwhelmed, and in some ways, my mom's hospitalization and illness almost feels like the last straw.

However, I know that God is faithful.    There are many people who are praying; and I do feel strengthened by that.    God also blessed me affirming that what I was doing to help my mom last week was useful, that I am providing valuable support for AV (God enabled me to help resolve an issue yesterday in the middle of worship) and that people in class have gained from the study through Acts and enjoyed the video (they even clapped afterwards).   God is all I need.

Book of Acts - Conclusion

 "But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."  (Acts 1:8)

It's been an interesting and informative year-long journey through the Book of Acts.  As we conclude the series and look back on all that we have studied, we can see that not only does Acts 1:8 serve as a structural outline for the Book, but, it also shows that the Church today really is just a continuation of the story of the Early Church.   We still have the same Mission and Message, and the Power is still from the Holy Spirit.

Some of the notable events in the Acts narrative timeline are:

• In Jerusalem (Chps 1-7)
• Peter's leadership and ministry
• Pentecost and coming of the Holy Spirit
• Persecution of the Church and Stephen martyred
• Spread of gospel to Judea and Samaria  (Chps 8-12)
• Philip's ministry
• Peter's Vision
• Paul's conversion
• To the "ends of the earth" (Chps 13-28)
• Paul's Ministry and Missionary Journeys
• Jerusalem Council (SALVATION IS BY FAITH THROUGH GRACE alone)
• Paul's Imprisonment and Defenses

Some of the things we can learn from the Book of Acts and the example of the Early Church are:

• The Church to focus on the foundational essentials - TEACHING, FELLOWSHIP, COMMUNION-WORSHIP, and PRAYER  (it was clear that the Early Church was made up of people of prayer)
• Our message should focus on the Resurrection, Salvation, and Jesus as the Messiah, using evidence from Scripture, and being more effective by keeping in mind who our audience is
• Be BOLD in declaring the Good News

What I personally gained from studying the Book were:

•  Knowing the Apostle Paul better - Not only did we see his unwavering singular focus on his calling, we also saw times when he needed encouragement.   He serves as an example of faithfulness to keep going even when encountering all kinds of trials (beatings, persecution, storms, shipwreck, etc)
• Encouragement to seize whatever opportunities to serve God and declare the message, even if we are WAITING - While Paul was imprisoned awaiting release or trial before Caesar, he still continued to be used by God despite his chains
• Reminder of the essentials of declaring the Good News - Christ, resurrection, and salvation
• Emphasis that we need to be filled with the Holy Spirit and that it is through His Power that we effectively witness; and that it is our duty and calling to be His witnesses
• Warning that the Enemy always attacks, especially when we are doing the work of God as the Church
• Reminder that God is sovereign and that His Plans will ultimately be fulfilled - He is constantly at work, even when we may not see it.  He is with us and can cause all things, even persecution, to work together for good
• Seeing that motivation comes from being sure of our calling and knowing that we are walking on His Path

Prayer

My mom continues to struggle with her health;and this week she had one of her worst episodes.   She was admitted into the hospital with excessive internal bleeding.   Fortunately, after surgery, it looks like she is on her way to recovery, albeit slowly.

At times like these, we go through so much, emotionally, physically, mentally, and socially.  In some ways, we feel helpless, because we personally can't really do all that much about the root problem.    However, I did find peace in PRAYER and placing her into God's Hands.

Wondering whether there's more I could be doing constantly runs through my mind; and this is actually a learning experience.    I haven't been through many situations like this, so having to make decisions regarding the hospital, visiting, preparations for her return home after the hospital stay, etc are new to me.   One thing that stood out, that I think is important, is to pray with the person.    I know that pastors and visitation teams do that; and I can see how that it would be one of the best things one can do for a person.

I am grateful for PRAYER - the power of it, the peace and comfort that comes from it, and how through it, God reveals to me practical ways in which I can help or what decisions to make.    I also have comfort in knowing that my Community Group will be joining in prayer as well.

10th Anniversary

My church celebrated our 10th Anniversary yesterday, and it was such a blessing to commemorate what God has done through the church these past ten years. It was neat to review the memories and to see the lives touched and the challenges overcome.  Our pastor gave us the charge, not just to be a greater church, but to be a movement for Christ; that we may make a positive impact not only on our local body and community but also to the world around us.

I am grateful to be part of this Body of Believers, who is focused on God's Vision, who loves the Lord, and who desires to be used by God.   As we spent time sharing thanksgivings, the word HOPE came to mind, as we had just studied it in Acts and it was part of the L.E.A.D. message.   How amazing that we have the HOPE of eternal life with God Who has allowed us to know HIM personally.

Acts 28 - Paul in Rome

Paul finally arrived in Rome, after all these years, thus fulfilling what God had said.  As soon as he arrived at the port, he gave thanks to God for the encouragement he received when invited to stay with some believers and when other believers come from long distances to greet him.

Despite his chains and being under house arrest, he kept his eye on his calling and jumped right into ministry.  Because he couldn't go to the synagogues, he instead assembled the Jewish leaders in his house where he was under guard; and gave his sixth and final defense recorded in Acts.  He identified with them as brothers, stated his innocence as determined in the trials thus far, and pointed to the hope of the Messiah and Resurrection.  The Jews were open to hear his perspective until they became divided when some believed and others didn't.  Paul concluded by quoting from Isaiah that their calloused hearts closed their ears and eyes to the healing that comes through salvation; and that the gospel message has now gone out to the Gentiles as well.

So, the Book of Acts concludes with Paul "[proclaiming] the kingdom of God and [teaching] about the Lord Jesus Christ—with all boldness and without hindrance!"

Yet, the story of the Church continues to this day; and we are to carry on the calling to be His witnesses to the ends of the earth.  We should follow Paul's example, and never lose sight of our calling and ministry; and to be ready to be used by God no matter the circumstance.

Hole Perspective

My perspective on the relationship "hole" has shifted.    Since God created us for relationships, I held to the view that we feel the emptiness of the "hole" when it is missing in our lives.   While it is true that God created us for relationships, yet, relationship with Him is sufficient.   It can be found in Scripture that there is no marriage in heaven (e.g. Luke 20:34-35); so, I take that to mean this paticular relationship would not be considered essential.   The primary relationship is the one with God; and the secondary is the one with others.

With no reservations, I say that God's love for me far outweighs any human love I could ever receive.    And, there is nothing on earth I would desire more than HIM. 

So, why do we feel a "hole" when we are not in the kind of relationship that leads to marriage?  That relationship should not be categorized as a "hole" when it is missing; but, rather as an added blessing when it is present.  It is like the other things in life that we want or desire.   Though, it would be nice to have; we are not incomplete without it.

However, the part of feeling the "hole" may be related to the need that we all have to feel loved.   We know that God loves us; but, it's all HIM.  He loves us and was willing to die for us even when we were unlovable.  I have done nothing to deserve that love.

So, we desire to have someone love us and to have that special relationship.   Yet, I think the correct perspective is that God's Love is sufficient; and we can also be loved through our relationships with others. That one special relationship is desirable but it is not essential; and thus should not be viewed as an empty hole that needs to be filled in order to be whole.

HIS Presence

There are some very precious times when I totally sense God's Presence; and today is one of those days.  Lately, I often felt like I was on that ship that the apostle Paul sailed on going to Rome - hitting winds, storms, delays, dangers, and ultimately shipwreck.  Yet, Paul had peace in the midst of that storm because of his faith in God; and I know that in the midst of my storms and even when feeling that I'm being blown off course and things are falling apart, I just need to keep my eyes on HIM.

At about lunch time today, after I had been faced with several challenges and decisions; I just felt so drawn to spend some time in prayer and sitting quietly before HIM.  It was a blessing to enter HIS throne room, and to lay my burdens at His feet.   God started answering almost right away, and I've been able to address some of the things that have been hanging over my head like storm clouds ready to pour down on me.

And then, I received an email from one of our church missionaries to Mexico.   She shared about how she was encouraged to receive the card and worship CD; and how it was perfect timing, for she had a tough day.  That's like a hug from God  (for both of us :-) ), to be encouraged by and to be the encourager to one another.  Isn't God wonderful!

Yes House

My Sunday Fellowship class will have the opportunity to prepare and serve Thanksgiving Dinner at Yes House, a non-profit transitional housing organization for women and children.  God worked out the timing so that I would be able to do it this year, since my family will be away.  May God bless the evening and be blessed by gratefulness to HIM.

I also had a chance to make some asparagus last night that turned out quite well.   I probably wouldn't be using it for the Thanksgiving dinner, since it would fit better in an Asian meal; but, I will file it away for some other time.    I heat up some vegetable oil and added apple cider vinegar.  Then sauteed the asparagus with onions and garlic; added some golden mountain seasoning sauce and sesame oil.  It had a nice light flavor that suited the asparagus quite well.

Comic Book Superhero Movies

I recently watched a run of comic book superhero movies, mainly from Marvel Comics:   Green Lantern, Captain America, Fantastic Four (2), Hulk (2), Batman (2), the X-men series, and Thor.   And in the past, I've seen Iron Man, Spiderman,  Daredevil, and Superman.

In general, what I like about this "genre" is that usually good prevails over evil when the superheros defeat the villains.   Also, typically the superhero(s) have admirable qualities, good character, and integrity.

Of all the ones I've seen, I like the first Fantastic Four the best.   In thinking about it, I'm not absolutely sure why; because many of the movies were quite enjoyable.    I guess, I liked the team working together; and each of the team members were also likeable and relateable.  Also, the relationship between Reed Richards and Sue Storm was sweet and genuine; plus, I really like Ioan Gruffudd as an actor.

I did like the X-men series; and again, it's that appeal of a team working together.   Interestingly, I actually liked Xmen: First Class the best; though Patrick Stewart is an excellent Professor Xavier, in the other ones.

Of the individual superhero movies, Captain America one of the most "feel good" patriotic ones, and Iron Man was very interesting and well-acted from beginning to end.   Dark Knight was the most philosophical and thought-provoking, with some challenges to the typical characteristics of the genre.   For some, like Green Lantern, Thor, and Hulk, the endings were somewhat unsatisfactory.   Some had memorable moments like when Michael Keaton says to a criminal, "I'm Batman"; or touching moments, like when Betty is able to get Hulk to return to his human Bruce Banner side.

Overall, I generally like comic book superhero movies.   Culturally, it's good to have superheros with worthwhile qualities to look up to; and reminders that ultimately good will prevail over evil.

Sudan

Last night, Pastor Tut Kon spoke of the work being done in Sudan.  Working with the Indigenous Church, Greater Reach Inc has provided help to train House Church leaders in Darfur and distributed Bibles.   Schools have been started and work has been done to start local Christian radio and to get the truth out through "orality" - word-of-mouth methods (for illiteracy is an issue, with the wars, devastation, and poverty).  

Particularly in South Sudan, where a new country has been formed on July 9, 2011 separate from Islamic North Sudan; the church has been asked by the government to assist in the process of Nation Building.   What an opportunity!  It was encouraging to hear of how God is at work already; and may He continue to bless the ministries through the partnership of our church and the local church there.

Pastor Tut Kon made a statement that when he suffered persecution, that's when he knew that he was called to serve there.   Amazing!

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Pricked by the Thorn again

Pricked by the THORN again - how long will this thorn continually cause me pain?

The beginning of this year, I had wondered whether I had been accidentally nicked by cupid's arrow; and now it's finally clear to me that I was never the intended target.  One of the most important characteristics to me is One who LOVES GOD; but for this person, "godly" would not be the first adjective I'd think of to describe him - "nice" or "talented" maybe, but not "godly".    That alone should've driven it home; but, it took a couple of stabs of feelings of rejection before I acknowledged it.

Yesterday, I once again firmly placed my thorn on the alter; and prayed for God's healing where the thorn has pierced.   And, I had to smile, for I could see that He was already at work.   He brought someone whom I greatly admire and respect to tell me that I am one of his favorite people in this world.   Knowing all the amazing people that he knows, that is quite a touching and encouraging statement that I know is from God.   God loves me and cares for me, and I am grateful.

More Dark Knight

Back in Dec 2008, I had blogged about a discussion event we had at my church about the Dark Knight as part of a Cinematics program (Dark Knight blog).    At that time, the speaker presented his perspective and showed clips from the movie.

I just finished watching the movie and have some additional comments and thoughts.  The movie makes some very strong philosophical statements from a very dark worldview perspective.  The Joker said that he wanted to turn a White Knight into a Dark Knight, to win the battle for the soul and conscience of Gotham City.  The Harvey Dent character, who is the person the Joker "turned" (physically illustrated by one side of his face "normal" and the other side burned almost to the skeleton), said "The only morality in a cruel world is chance" (which he played out by flipping a coin to determine whether he was going to kill someone).    This is the naturalistic evolution worldview - that life came to be by chance; and just evolved over time.   In this point of view, there really is no basis for morality; whereas, in the Christian Worldview, morality is defined by God's absolute standards for ethics.

While the outcome of the incident with the ferry boats showed the positive decision for good (based on the absolute standard of "Thou shalt not kill"); yet, each boat went through a process representative of existing methods for determining "morality" in a world that has rejected absolute moral standards:  social morality (deciding what is right based on the majority vote) and might-makes-right morality (those with the power making the decision). 

Even Batman, in the movie, made a philosophical statement that sounds "good" but is really a LIE.   He said "Sometimes truth isn't good enough.  Sometimes people deserve more."  Yes, we have all been guilty of "white lies" in the name of protecting someone from the truth; and in the movie, it made a case for suppressing the truth so the people would not lose hope.  BUT, that is a very dangerous point of view, and a lie is a lie is a lie.    I do believe that truth and honesty is the best policy; and it is very clear in Scripture how essential TRUTH is.   In fact, as the Truth Project clearly illustrates, the age-old cosmic battle is the one between the TRUTH of God versus the LIES of this world.

Acts 27-28 - Paul at Sea

In Acts 27, the journey that Paul has long been awaiting is finally here - he on his way to Rome.  While God has told him and reassured him that he was to stand trial before Caesar; yet, this journey was still filled with difficulties, storms, winds, and dangers.  Paul even recognized that he would have to wait even more, when winter approached and they could no longer sail in the open seas.

This passage illustrates God sovereignty, His Timing, and His Work.   God would bring Paul to Rome in His Time; but, meanwhile, He provided friends to accompany Paul (Luke and Aristarchus), used the kindness of Julius the Roman Centurion, and appeared to Paul in a vision to encourage.  Then, when those on the ship "gave up all hope of being saved", Paul used the opportunity to encourage and to share his faith in God.

Paul served as an example for survival, when he took bread, gave thanks to God, broke it and ate it.   And, just as God had said, their ship ran aground and was wrecked; but, "everyone reached land safely."  Attitude and perspective makes a difference when we are facing difficulties; for, Paul went through the exact same circumstances as the rest of the ship; but, he was the one who kept his eyes on God and His promises.

 On Malta, the islanders were amazed when they saw that Paul suffered no ill effects from an encounter with a viper.  Then when he healed the Roman official's father, others who were diseased would come for healing.   When departing, they were treated with honor and provided with supplies.   Today, Malta is listed with a population of close to 350,000 with about 99% Christians (mostly Catholic) who celebrate every year Paul's shipwreck on the island.

This passage is a reminder that even when we are on God's Path, we may still encounter difficulties, storms, and even shipwreck.  We just need to trust in His promises and His deliverance; and look for opportunities to be used by Him no matter our circumstances.

This passage also gives some characteristics of a leader as exemplified by the apostle Paul, who from the position of lowly prisoner rose to be the leader who through God's help brought all the ships passengers to safety on land:

• Trustworthy
• Assesses Situation, Takes Initiative, and Makes Wise Decisions
• Speaks with Authority
• Encourages and Cares for those being led
• Leads by Example

L.E.A.D

Leading up to our church 10th anniversary; my pastor started the series on our church mission (L.E.A.D.):
Love God, Equip Believers, Answer God's Call, Declare the Good News

He started with the "Love God", which is the first priority for that is the greatest commandment.  We love God by putting Him first, reverencing Him, personally responding through pursuing, trusting, and obeying, and being motivated by our devotion to Him. We grow in our love by Knowing, Walking, and Working with God.  And, our love for Him is evidenced in our lives through transformation, worship, service, and love for others.

For "Equip Believers", we heard from both the Assistant Pastor (Sat night service) and our main Pastor (Sunday morning service) that the "key to spiritual survival in life is to be properly equipped" - who has "packed our parachute"?  God has given us three basic equipping tools:  1) The Bible, 2) Prayer, and 3) Trials  (The assistant pastor said the word for "perseverance" in James 1:2-4 actually means "hunker down"; which means to stick with it - one great quote from the sermon was along the lines that we often expend our energies trying to get out of a trial when we should be looking for opportunities to be used by God through the trial).  When we are equipped, from Ephesians 4:14, we can see that we will grow, have stability, be discerning, and have a defense.

To "Answer God's Call", we are to 1) seize opportunities to serve, 2) serve in a ministry God tailor-made for us using our gifts (we are his workmanship or "poema" - work or art, song, or poem), 3) serve with humility, and 4) be motivated by love.  We are not saved BY works; but, we are saved TO work.   Greatness, as described by Jesus, is to be a servant and to serve.

The personal profile of the Christian who "Declares the Good News" is one who has 1) FAITH (calm assurance that God is in charge and in control of the outcome), 2) HOPE (a forward look that sees God bringing things to a beautiful ending), and 3) LOVE (pure motivation for witness).   Matthew 28:18-20 is our great commission to "go and make disciples".

Women's Night Out

I had a chance to go to the FISH Women's Night Out event tonight, featuring Rebecca St James.   Rebecca spoke about her stand for purity and the struggles and pain she went through in Waiting.   She is now married; and it is encouraging to hear her story.

There were a couple of things that stood out this evening:

• In one of her songs in which she had written about dealing with singleness, I was reminded of a verse from Ecclesiastes 3:11a "He has made everything beautiful in its time."     This is actually sort of the concluding statement in that well known passage on there being a time for everything and a season for every activity.  This can be another verse to encourage waiting on God for His Timing.
• Rebecca's brothers also sang, and they are now the group "For King and Country".    This was a reminder to me that we ARE children of the KING; and that we live for HIM and for HIS people.   But, it is also a reminder that as children of the KING, that means we are princes and princesses.  How incredible that He has bestowed upon us the privilege of being part of HIS royal family.  Though I do not deserve it, nor do I feel like a princess; yet, He has adopted me into HIS family and made me joint heirs with Christ.   Amazing!

The Island

I finished reading "the Island" this week, which was a book I received as a gift on my Birthday (though I was there when it was bought in the bookstore at Agios Nikolaos).   It was an interesting read; but it was filled with heartache - the difficulties faced particularly by those who were caring and hard-working, the troubles caused by the selfish, etc.

To me, what I liked most, was that it was a reminder of my trip to Greece, and specifically to Crete.   I could picture some of the places the book would describe; and remembered trying to learn some of the Greek words mentioned, like 'Kalimera.'    Overall, it was fun to kind of "re-live" being in Greece; and at the same time learn something about the history.

Paul Before Agrippa (Acts 25-26)

Just when Paul thought his wait was over and that he was to be sent to Rome to be heard by Caesar; he was made to wait some more and even have a hearing before King Herod Agrippa II, because Festus wanted Agrippa's help in writing the charges to be sent to Rome since Herod was considered by the Romans to be an authority on the Jewish religion.   So, Paul just utilized this as yet another opportunity to defend the faith, and thus gave his fifth of six defenses.   This also fulfilled his calling to "proclaim [Christ's] name to ...kings" as foretold at his conversion in Acts 9:15.

In his defense, similar to the one to the Jewish crowd at the temple, Paul established common ground and identified with Herod on Jewish customs, beliefs, background, and persecution of saints formerly.   He also focused on the hope in the RESURRECTION as the reason for why he was really on trial; for, as indicated by Festus, there was no evidence to support any of the other charges against him related to Roman law.  Paul then continued by recounting his conversion experience and his calling; and detailed what salvation involves:  opening of eyes, turning from darkness to light and from power of Satan to God, receiving forgiveness of sin and inheritance, and sanctification by faith.

When accused by Festus of going insane, he said that the gospel message is TRUE (consistent with reality) and REASONABLE (able to be tested and substantiated with evidence).    He even challenged Agrippa to respond by acknowledging that Christ has fulfilled Scriptural prophecies of the Messiah and that HIS death and resurrection were "not done in a corner" (i.e. known historical events).   Agrippa, however, turned from the opportunity to become a Christian; despite Paul's display of his heart and compassion for all those who were listening.  Not wanting to hear any more Herod rose and left; though, admitted to Festus that Paul was innocent and hasn't done "anything that deserves death or imprisonment".

Sometimes I feel like a permanent resident in God's waiting room.   Like Paul, when there are times I had hope that the wait might finally come to an end; I find that it's not to be, and that I still have to wait longer.  Yet, this passage clearly showed me, that I need to look for opportunities that God can use me while I am waiting - and that there is a purpose and reason for the waiting.   May I be patient, and more than that, may I be a useful vessel for HIM and fulfill His Plans in my life.

Heaven is for Real

"Heaven is for Real" by Todd Burpo.  This was a very moving and interesting read written by a pastor, the father his young son's (Colton's) visit to heaven when he was close to death in the hospital.  There was even some humor sprinkled into this serious story, like when Colton's sister Cassie suggested the title of the book be "He's Back, but He's No Angel."

A couple things that stood out for me are:

• God answers prayers - like when Colton said he was yelling for his dad in the hospital because Jesus had told him that he needed to come back from heaven to earth because He was answering Todd's prayers, even when he was crying out to God and frustrated with all that God was "putting him through".   Todd said he learned that we can be real with God and that we are heard.
• We should remember to give to those in need- the church came alongside their pastor and started sending much-needed gifts which helped cover the bills

And, it was also neat to hear the story of Akiane, a little girl who also saw Jesus; and her "Prince of Peace:   The Resurrection" painting.

I know Heaven is for real; and my faith in Christ is really real.    It's neat when I doencounter additional confirmation and verification of what I believe.

My God, My God...Why Have You Forsaken Me?

"My God, My God.... Why Have You Forsaken Me?" 

My Pastor pointed out that this may have been the most significant question ever asked. In his "When God Asks the Questions" series, he's been going thru the Bible and preaching on passages where Jesus asked a question; for a good question will unlock the doors of understanding.

This particular question stands alone on it's eternal significance and personal impact on the world.    It was not a question that Jesus asked a human being; but, He asked it of God the Father.   Jesus asked the question using Aramaic, praying from his "heart language" - his familiar vernacular.  He actually didn't just ask it; He screamed it; for the greatest pain He suffered was not the scourging, nor the taunts, nor the crucifixion, but was the alienation from the Father.  Jesus became a curse for us; for the wages of sin is death.    Jesus didn't just die a martyr's death; nor did He just do it as an example.  He suffered God's wrath for all sin for all time for all mankind.  What amazing LOVE and GRACE!

What's more, this question was prophesized in Psalm 22 about 1000 years earlier; before even the use of crucifixion.  Jesus' fulfillment of prophesy confirmed that He is the Messiah; the promised Deliverer.   The torn curtain gives us direct access to God; whereas, it used to separate the Holy of Holies into which the high priest entered only once a year on Yom Kippur.

What Christ did on the cross means the following for us as believers:

• We are loved with the infinite love of God - His death on the cross is evidence of that great love
• Christ paid the penalty for our sins in full - self-loathing is a lie b/c it blocks us from seeing the beautiful and precious truth that we are loved
• We are called to suffer for Christ's sake - In the same way the Father delivered the Son; He will deliver us
• We are guaranteed a place in heaven - that's where HOME is (Christ not only prepared the WAY but also the place)

Acts 25:1-12 Paul On Trial Before Festus

Festus replaces Felix as governor, and Paul is once again called to stand trial.   Things have not changed in the two years that Paul was under guard in Caesarea.   The Jews still wanted to ambush and kill Paul.   And, when they brought their accusations, they still had no evidence.  Paul continued to maintain his innocence; and then exercised his right as a Roman citizen to appeal to Caesar.   Festus agreed; and so, Paul's waiting was finally over.  He was now being sent to Rome, just as God had said two years ago.

This passage illustrates some things about sitting in God's "Waiting Room".    I can somewhat imagine how I would've felt in Paul's situation.... being kept under guard for two whole years, even though he did nothing wrong.  He knew God said he would be a witness in Rome; but, here he was stuck in Caesarea.    Yet, he seemed to make the most of his situation, still telling the gospel message to Felix and Drusilla.   Even when called to stand trial once again, this time before Festus, he did not reveal any frustration with once again being asked to go back to Jerusalem to be tried.  Instead, he used the opportunity to appeal to Caesar and kept sight on God's Plan to send him to Rome.  This shows me that God has His Timing; and that we just need to keep focused on His Calling and Plan; and be ready for any opportunities that arise.

What Does True Worship Look Like?

"What Does True Worship Look Like?" 
This question was answered by Jesus in John 4:24 "God is Spirit, and His worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth."

To worship God in Spirit (HOW), is to connect with God through activating our spirits or hearts to experience God.   And to worship in truth (WHO), is to worship HIM based on the truth of Scripture; for we cannot put our life upon just an experience, it must be tied to truth.

One thing that my pastor said that really stood out was that, worship will always take us to a better place than we are at; where we find the thirsting of our souls met.   We cannot enter into true worship without being affected.

Sunday, my church also made available it's "Discover Worship @Cornerstone" CD - a collection of the samples of the worship music at Cornerstone:  choir, piano, children's choir, youth band, worship team, etc.    My favorite track on the CD is the Piano Hymn Medley.

After church, I just felt a need to spend time with the Lord.   In keeping with what the Assistant Pastor talked about - remembering that we are "so blessed"; I started to just play and sing songs that adored God and focused on how much He loves me and has blessed me.   Then, as I sang songs that reflected my mood, I was so grateful for the hymn writers who put their own heartache and pains into lyrics and music that were able to express how I felt better than I ever could myself.

Acts 23-24 Trial Before Felix

God demonstrated His protection of Paul by using 470 soldiers, horsemen, and spearmen to escort him to Caesarea for his third of six defenses as a prisoner.   Even the Roman commander's letter to Felix essentially said that he could not find Paul guilty of anything regarding Roman law.

In the trial before Felix, the lawyer for the chief priest and elders used false flattery, false accusations, and false witnesses to bring their charges against Paul.   But, in his defense, Paul stated facts and also gave a defense of the faith; along with once again making the bold and amazing statement that his conscience is clear before God and man.   He pointed out that there were no eyewitnesses to bring charges against him and there were no substantiated accusations even from those who were present.

Though the passage indicates that Felix knew there was no evidence to convict Paul, he still kept Paul under guard because he was hoping to collect a bribe from Paul and was also trying to gain political favor from the Jews.   Though Felix had two years of direct one-on-one access to ask Paul any questions he wanted to and would've had solid Scriptural answers, he put off listening to his conscience which convicted him of the sin in his life and thus squandered this amazing opportunity.    We do not know whether he and his wife Drusilla ever turned to the Way; but, we do know that in the two years Paul was under guard in Caesarea, they did not yet.

Sunday Worship (Blessings and Futility of Anxiety)

It really was a blessing to be in worship yesterday.  I thank God for my church home and freedom to worship.

During worship, Sara sang "Blessings" by Laura Story.   I might even have written about it before; but, every time I hear it, I am moved by the simplicity of the melody but the power of the beautiful lyrics:


We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

And, the song fit well with the message on the futility of anxiety from Matthew 6:25-34, the Sermon on the Mount passage where Jesus asks: "Why are you Anxious?"; reminding us that the Father loves us unconditionally and knows our needs.

Jesus knows what it is like to have the "weight of the world" on His shoulders.   At times like that, we need to remember that God often has something bigger in mind than the immediate circumstance and that we can trust Him to be in control.  When we are weak, He is strong; and "Worry" and "Faith" do not go together.

Verses 33-34 give the strategy against worry:

• Seeking God FIRST and living righteously
• Living one day at a time (worry usually focuses on the past or future, not the now)
• Remembering that God doesn't let us go through more than we can handle (1 Corinth 10:13 says "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.")

Acts 23 - Paul before the Sanhedrin

As Paul stood before the Sanhedrin, he was able to make the amazing and bold statement "I have fulfilled my duty to God in all good conscience to this day."   Wow!   How many of us would be able to say that?

However, for  the rest of the assembly Paul was struck in the mouth, had a confrontation regarding the high priest, and had to be rescued when a violent uproar arose after he said that he was on trial for the "hope of the resurrection of the dead." (mainly because the Pharisees and Sadduccees were divided on this doctrine)

Paul was likely discouraged at the outcome, when God showed up and stood near him.   Paul might have been thinking that he didn't do such a good job being a witness in Jerusalem; and that he might get killed and never make it to Rome.   But, God encouraged and reassured Paul by saying, "Take courage! As you have testified about me in Jerusalem, so you must also testify in Rome."   
God has done that in my life - "shown up" exactly when I needed encouragement.


We then see God at work through Paul's nephew and the Roman commander, to protect Paul from conspiring Jews and their plans to kill him.   The Jews hypocritically make an oath to God; and yet proceed to break the Law - plotting murder and having the chief priests and elders lie.

More Cooking

Somewhat unexpectedly, I ended up hosted a family dinner last night.  We had previously scheduled a gathering over the weekend; but, it had been cancelled; and then, at about 5pm it was decided that we should go ahead an have it anyways.   It turned out to almost be like a "pantry challenge".  Fortunately, I had gone grocery shopping the previous day and had some ingredients; but, I had to quickly formulate a menu that would fit the occasion and my family's tastes and dietary restrictions.    It was actually kind of fun, which shows me how much I really do enjoy cooking.

I was pleased that in about two hours; I had prepared a meal; and served it in nice place settings.   Following is what I served:

• Grilled zucchini - the zucchini was sliced lengthwise; coated with olive oil, italian herbs, salt, and pepper; and then cooked on my cast iron grill.   It actually turned our fairly well, with the grilled and smoke flavor (even with grill lines).   The only thing was that cooking it created so much smoke that my smoke alarm went off  (not sure how to avoid that - though, it appeared that adding more oil made it even smokier)
• Shrimp and mushroom vermicelli noodles - the dried mushrooms didn't get to soak long enough so the stems were still hard; but, the noodles turned out okay.    I first sauteed the shrimp with garlic and then set aside.   Then, the sauce was made with the mushroom, green onion, oyster sauce, hoisin sauce, fish sauce, and chicken stock.    After adding the noodles and shrimp, it was seasoned to taste with soy sauce and sesame oil.
• Mediterranean Chicken pasta - following the package instructions, I browned the chicken which was coated with the seasoned flour; and the sauce was created with the creamy sauce and milk.   It was okay; but, fresh ingredients are definitely better.
• Hawaiian Chicken - Baked chicken with a hawaiian marinade and pineapple chunks added.  My dad liked it; though my brother said it was a little "tangy"
• Asian soup - Using the bone portions of the chicken leg quarters; I made the soup based and added napa cabbage, carrots, and tofu with green onion.

For dessert, I was able to serve an assorted cheesecake platter.  As I was in the store picking out desserts for my planned get-together with a couple of friends this coming Friday; I was drawn to the cheesecake platter, even though it was much larger than I needed.    And, it turned out, I was able to use it for last night also.  I feel that it was God's leading, knowing what would be needed.   I also still have the food that I planned for my Friday dinner (marinated BBQ chicken, mixed vegetables, and rice) and enough cheesecake left for dessert.   

How Many Loaves Do You Have?

In the familiar story of Jesus feeding the 5,000, is recorded in all four Gospels.  When Jesus asked the question "How many loaves do you have?", the deeper question was whether we are willing to give to God what little we have in order for Him to use it for His miraculous work?   My pastor made an interesting statement, that if we don't see anything in our lives that cannot be explained by practical means, then it may show that we are not letting God do the extraordinary in our lives.

It was also really interesting to realize that there are only two miracles in which Jesus "created" something that was not there - turning water to wine and feeding the 5,000 with the bread (and fish).   The wine and bread in the Lord's supper represent His Blood and Body shed and broken for our sins; and in these miracles, He was display part of Who He Is.

It was a neat Lord's Day, for learning.   Before church, there was an quote I heard on a Christian radio station - happiness is a choice; but joy is a fruit of the Spirit.   To me, that was a reminder that happiness may depend on our circumstances; but, through the Spirit, we can always have joy.

Then, during the devotional to the Worship Team, our assistant pastor shared what he learned from Oswald Chambers, that there is a difference between salvation and discipleship.    Salvation is God's Work, Christ dying on the cross for us; Discipleship is our dying to ourself and following Him.   He hoped that we would live the radical Christian life; and that was a reminder, along with his example of sharing what he learned during devotions; that in order to most effectively serve, we need to be continually walking with Him that He may always be working in us and teaching us.

"What is That to You?"

The question in today's message in the current sermon series, is interestingly "What is That to You?"   John 21 is the passage in which Jesus re-instates Peter and asks him three times "Do you Love Me?"   But, it is the later question that my Pastor chose to focus on, which is the question that Jesus asks after Peter wondered what would happen to John.   Essentially, Jesus was saying, we should follow Him without comparing ourselves to anyone else. 

Other lessons from the passage, is that to follow Him, we must:

• Wait on God's Timing
• Give up old empty ways (evaluate whether what we are doing produces fruit)
• Obey God expecting a miracle (do we expect God to do great things through us?)
• Be enthusiastic about Jesus (reminds me that enthusiasm is based on the root words "en-Theos" or "in God")
• Seek closer fellowship with Jesus (what a beautiful picture that the disciples had breakfast with Christ)
• Serve Jesus motivated by love (no matter what level we are at, we can still serve him.   For example, even with "phileo" love, Jesus said Peter could feed his lambs (young believers).   Our love for God is the foundation and motivation for our serving Him.   So, does our life reflect our love for Christ?

 After Church today, we had a community group leader meeting.  We are reminded that community groups are intended to provide an environment for Bible Study, Prayer, Fellowship, and Caring for one another and the community.  We currently 350 church members in community groups; 450 individuals; and 500 attendees; which is equivalent to 59% of those in our church.

Pastor Terry challenged us to have a leadership goal - and mine was to do what Moses was advised to do - delegate.  So, my goal is to involve more people in the leadership of the class.   The three goals he gave for us are:

1. Do everything and anything I can do to keep my relationship with Christ FIRST in my life
2. Guard what has been entrusted to my care
3. Help people to see the goodness of God in their lives

What I really appreciated was when he said that seldom do we feel equipped to help a person's issues; but, we can all help them to see God's goodness.   In Psalm 116, the "cup of salvation" was a reminder of God's deliverance throughout our lives.    I appreciated that, because I often do feel inadequate in helping when I hear of peoples' struggles; and it is good to know that I'm not unique in that; and when we do help them to see God's goodness, that is one way we can help.

9/11 Ten Years Later

There were so many poignant and emotional ceremonies today in memory of 9/11.   I pray for comfort and healing for those who lost loved ones; and I pray that our nation will re-awaken to our spiritual need for God in our lives.

As I watched and listened to the speeches and ceremonies, there is a reason why, despite all the continual efforts of some to remove God from the public arena, yet in times of tragedy or memorials, we turn to prayer and to singing hymns and songs of faith like "Amazing Grace" or "God Bless America".  This is because, when faced with terrible tragedy, true hope can only be found in God.  In a memorial speech President Obama gave today, he even quoted from Psalm 46 "God is our refuge and strength, and ever-present help in trouble.   Therefore we will not fear.."

Throughout today, I felt a sense of peace and calm; and I believe it is because there are so many people praying for our nation this day, in memory of 9/11.     I don't think it was a coincidence that the 10th anniversary of 9/11 fell on a Sunday, when Christians all over could gather together and pray for our nation in our churches.     May we as a nation humble ourselves and turn back to God; and may God continue to bless this country.   Amen.

Acts 21-22 Paul Arrested

Even though Paul demonstrated his obedience to Jewish laws and customs by following the suggestion from James and the Jerusalem Church elders; when the time of purification was nearly over, Jews, likely from Ephesus, still continued to falsely accuse him.  They even incited the crowd to start beating and trying to kill Paul, until a Roman commander and soldiers arrested and bound (as prophesied) him, and brought him to the barracks.

Despite being falsely accused, beaten, nearly killed, arrested, and bound; Paul's heart of compassion is demonstrated in his desire to still speak to the crowd.  In showing that he was polite, educated, and not the criminal rebel he was mistaken for, Paul was granted permission to give his message.

The elements of the defense of his faith (apologetics), which we can also use as examples, were:

• Identifying with the audience 
• Finding common ground
• Establishing credibility
• Giving evidence to counteract the false charges
• Giving his personal testimony of his conversion and encounter with Christ

The example elements of personal testimony shared were:

• God's Work
• Encounter with Christ
• New Life and Purpose
• Conversion and Salvation

 As Paul had often wrote about, here he demonstrated that he was willing to suffer for Christ and to share in his affliction.  Much of the persecution he faced was similar to what Christ had faced.  And, no matter the circumstance, he continued to be committed to his calling to share the gospel message.  He was able to turn this terrible situation into an opportunity to testify to his faith.

However, as soon as he mentioned that God had sent him to the Gentiles, the crowd once again wanted to kill him.    And, Paul was only able to avoid flogging by revealing his Roman citizenship.

Chp 22 was the first defense of six that Paul was to give from now to the end of the Book of Acts.  Verse 30 sets up the second, which will be to the Sanhedrin.

Peach Salad

I tried making a carmelized peach salad similar to the one I had at CPK the other week.   The peaches didn't carmelize so well - next time, I will make sure to drain out the syrup first and use more butter initially with just the peaches.    The rest of it turned out fairly well - I mixed the greens with dried cranberry, red onion, balsamic vinegar, olive oil, salt, and pepper.   Then, added the warm peaches and poured in the syrup to taste.

What Is It You Want?

"What is it you want?" - Yet another open-ended question that Jesus asked, and this time of the mother of James and John, the sons of Zebedee.  When she replied that she wanted them to be able to sit at the right and left of Jesus in His Kingdom, Jesus asked another question “Can you drink the cup I am going to drink?”    Essentially, the lesson is summarized in Matthew 20:26b-27:   "Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant (diakonos), and whoever wants to be first must be your slave (doulos)."    And, Jesus was the greatest example of this.

As followers of Christ, we will face trials and must make sacrifices; and we are to have an attitude of humility, being servants and slaves of the Most High God. In following His example, we seek to enter the Kingdom not by flying in with "fire on our behinds"; but, the picture is of a runner leaning in towards the finish line!