Monday, March 15, 2010

Uneasiness

If I were to pick a word to best describe how I am feeling overall, it would be:  UNEASY.   While, fortunately, nothing has yet reached disastrous proportions, yet, I have this constant sense of uneasiness hanging overhead like a cloud.

When I think about it, I would say that this is caused by a growing "TO DO" list, as well as wondering about whether there is something else I should to be doing to correct past issues or to help more of those in need.  How did I get to this point?   I would say it started with lack of energy and motivation; and partially a sense of being a little overwhelmed.  And then there is that feeling of lacking wisdom to know what's the best thing to do.    Well, the answer, of course, to the last part is to pray.   Didn't God say, "If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, Who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him."  (James 1:5)?   And, one of the answers to the first part is also to pray.   I have been asking God to help me when I feel overwhelmed, and when I lack motivation.   I do what I need to do, and maybe that's good enough.  After all, finishing the race is done one step at a time.

At this point, I've determined that there is nothing much I can do to "fix" the particular past issues that are bothering me.  I have prayed that God would show me if He thinks otherwise.  As for my "TO DO" list, I did make one out this week, and I feel like I'm addressing them as I can.  I'm going to just prioritize and approach each one task at a time; trusting God to help me get through them all.  And, in all the other areas of my life, may God grant me wisdom to make right decisions.  Amen.

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