Awake

It's like the alarm clock just rang, and I need to "wake up".   Seems like just yesterday that I "went to sleep" a young adult who just graduated from college prepared to face the world still full of hopes and dreams.   Now that I'm not "young" anymore, I see that what I may have envisioned for my future is somewhat different from reality.  

Like today, in one of my meetings, the organizer had to leave suddenly due to a fire drill in his building, and he asked me to take over running the meeting.  It caught me off guard somewhat, though I was able to handle it and the others seemed comfortable with my delegated authority.  It made me realize that whether I like it or not, I am considered a leader.  Though I may have felt like it just crept up on me, in reality, I've been in leadership roles most of my life.   I've just been what I call a "reluctant leader", and I've even written before on the quote that often, God is actually better able to use those who aren't expecting to be leaders, since they will seek to rely more upon HIM, rather than themselves.  I hope that it will always be true that I will rely upon HIM, and He will be able to use me effectively.