Monday, April 20, 2009

Deep in Thought

I used to love going over to the beach and walk along the ocean, deep in thought, communing with God. I haven't done it much lately; but, that's kind of what I feel like doing this morning. There are a variety of thoughts from occurrences this weekend that I'd like to ponder. They are actually quite unrelated occurrences; but, the commonality is that they happened this weekend. In a way, they all cause me to think, and since they all took place in a short space of time, I feel like my mind is swimming in that ocean of thoughts. First, I was reminded in my Bible Study for Sunday, that we do need to exercise wisdom in the decisions that we make in our lives. Compromises and unwise decisions can cause cracks in our foundation; and over time, the foundation will start to crumble, leading to moral collapse. We see that illustrated in King Solomon's life, as 1 Kings 3 shows the start of his compromises, in marrying Pharoah's daughter and in offering sacrifices at the high places. Moral collapse does not occur overnight; and it is important to walk consistently in His ways, and firming our foundation whenever we can. One neat thing I was reminded of, that I had heard before, was that of the Bible without words "book". My friend did this for the kids at Easter: it's a book with 4 colored pages:
  • Black - shows the sinful state of human depravity
  • Red - represents the blood of Jesus shed for us
  • White - represents the purity and cleansing when we are saved
  • Yellow - represents the hope of Glory
The gospel story is truly amazing! The other area that will require more pondering to sort out, is illustrated in my bee experience this weekend. Saturday morning, my neighbor came over to tell me that there was a swarm of bees in one of my trees. I called a bee company to schedule someone to come take care of it. Throughout the day, I struggled with feelings of inadequacy, aloneness, and sadness. I feel like my neighbor dislikes me, and this just adds to it. Yet, this was not my fault, and not a result of anything I did or did not do. Then, I was reminded that I am forced to face dealing with things and making decisions all by myself. It would be nice if I had people who were there to support me and help me. The sadness is just a natural reaction to the situation. Yet, I did get to spend some time in prayer; and right before the bee company was scheduled to come, I found that the swarm of bees had disappeared. I do wonder if this was an answer to prayer; and I do wonder what it is I was supposed to learn through this. Nevertheless, I do feel that my life is somewhat off center right now. I'm not sure what has tilted my life off the axis; but, I am seeking God to help bring me back in alignment. Meanwhile, I will just keep "surviving" and seeking to live my life for HIM.

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