I feel like I'm trying to spin the wheels but am not going anywhere. I'm stuck. This was bound to happen, wasn't it? If I overexert myself, why should I be surprised when I don't have the energy to get up again, after I come crashing down?
I suppose I should have tried to do more to avoid crashing down; but, I'm not sure what else I could've done. And, I'm trying not to stay down; but, it really is hard. I just barely have enough energy to take care of my normal obligations - work, preparing for Sunday class, preparing for Community Group Bible Study, cooking, running errands, taking care of things around the house, etc.
Oh, and I can already see the new mountain I will need to climb next. Jury duty is coming up, Easter, family get togethers, another guest, class potluck, and so on.
In the back of my mind, I'm trying to figure out what I can do regarding my estranged friend, to show that I'm still here if she ever needed me; My "thorn" has been bothering me more than ever; and, I just feel like my tanks are empty.
However, when I step out and realistically look at the situation, I have to be grateful for all that God has blessed me with. While I recognize that it makes sense that I need time to renew my energy, I'm not going to let my emotions overwhelm me. I'm going to keep doing what I need to do; and I'm going to keep seeking the LORD for strength to carry on. Hopefully, someone will come alongside me and help me get "unstuck".
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Stuck
I feel like I'm trying to spin the wheels but am not going anywhere. I'm stuck. This was bound to happen, wasn't it? If I overexert myself, why should I be surprised when I don't have the energy to get up again, after I come crashing down?
I suppose I should have tried to do more to avoid crashing down; but, I'm not sure what else I could've done. And, I'm trying not to stay down; but, it really is hard. I just barely have enough energy to take care of my normal obligations - work, preparing for Sunday class, preparing for Community Group Bible Study, cooking, running errands, taking care of things around the house, etc.
Oh, and I can already see the new mountain I will need to climb next. Jury duty is coming up, Easter, family get togethers, another guest, class potluck, and so on.
In the back of my mind, I'm trying to figure out what I can do regarding my estranged friend, to show that I'm still here if she ever needed me; My "thorn" has been bothering me more than ever; and, I just feel like my tanks are empty.
However, when I step out and realistically look at the situation, I have to be grateful for all that God has blessed me with. While I recognize that it makes sense that I need time to renew my energy, I'm not going to let my emotions overwhelm me. I'm going to keep doing what I need to do; and I'm going to keep seeking the LORD for strength to carry on. Hopefully, someone will come alongside me and help me get "unstuck".
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