NYE '09

I'm going to ring in the New Year with the Newsboys at Knott's tonight.  It's too bad that there isn't a full Praise night like in past years; but, hopefully, it'll still be good.

I had to work all day; but, fortunately, with the holidays, it's been a quiet week.  And last night, I was able to do my Bible Study prep also.   However, I was also made aware of how truly important it is to be Holy, as He is Holy; to keep our minds on things of above, to pursue purity and holiness.   In James 1, he encourages believers to ask for wisdom to be able to act rightly in the midst of trials.  May I walk in His Ways; and may He keep my feet from stumbling.   In this New Year, may I start anew, and live victoriously.  Amen!

Taking Peeks at 2010

I know it's coming; but, somehow, I'm not ready to tackle it just yet.   I keep taking a peek at it, since Christmas is over, and inevitably it'll soon be time to ring in the New Year.  I almost feel like that time in the morning when the sun is about to rise; and I just want to pull the covers over my head to block out the sunlight that will be streaming in the window. 

I know that I have to prepare for the new Bible Study series starting this Sunday.   But, I haven't been able to sit myself down, focus, and study intently.   I know that I have to start taking down Christmas decorations; but, putting them up was so much more fun.  I know I have to start dealing with things that are coming up in the New Year, because life doesn't stop even if I'm not ready for it to continue:  there's my aunt's funeral next week; I have to put on my "shepherd" hat again for my class; I have to make appointments to see the eye doctor, the oral surgeon, the dentist, etc.; I have to get my oil changed; I have to start thinking about house projects again (e.g. exterior painting).....

At least I've been slowly but surely addressing life..... my house actually has a "new car smell" right now, since I just got new sofas to replace the ones that were torn/broken.   God did lead me to give an end-of-the-year donation to World Vision.  May He use it for His Work through that ministry.  I've been preparing for my class' New Year potluck, by making sure I have enough space, and tables/chairs to accommodate people.   In some ways, my mom's room project is changing my schedule and time; but, I do hope that by fixing it up, it will help improve her health by being rid of the dust and mold.

I think that what I feel like I need most right now is to just sit at Jesus' feet and find focus and renewal.  I've been reading Mike's journal on the Tenth Avenue North website, and I'm so impressed by his passion for God.  I read his entries; and in contrast to mine; I can see how he is writing about the amazing insights that God has given him, whereas I'm just writing about life and occasionally about what I learn.   I realize that I have a long way to go, when it comes to writing.   It's great that his faith is reflected in his songs.  In his "Hold My Heart" entry, he pointed out that in Mark 7:33a when it said "and taking him aside from the crowd, privately...", it was a reminder that we need to personally come face to face with Jesus (daily!).   My relationship with Christ should not just be going to church, playing Christian music, or even preparing for Bible Study.   It's having that intimate encounter with HIM, communicating with HIM, loving HIM, experiencing His Presence, allowing HIM to teach and guide me as I walk with HIM.  In listening to some of the stories behind the songs, a couple of quotes stood out:

• "Waiting is saying I'm going to be content in being discontent"
• St Augustine is quoted as saying "Our hearts are restless until they rest in Thee, O Lord"
  

At the close of this entry, I'd like to write about one of my favorite verses to comtemplate around New Years', Luke 2:52.   It's the verse I use to evaluate my growth in the major four areas of life:

• Mental - I haven't read as many books the last couple of years as I have in the past.  I really should make more of an effort to get back into that
  
• Physical - I haven't been so consistent.  I'm not doing badly; and I was actually really good last week after returning from the cruise; but, I could definitely improve
  
• Spiritual - I'm still "thirsty"; but, hopefully, I will soon get back into the routine of preparing for studies and allowing God to teach me through His Word
  
• Social - I have good friendships; but, this is probably still my weakest area

After a year of nothing extraordinary, it seems to have also affected all of the above areas in my life.  Maybe, in order to have a more impactful life, I need to make improvements in these areas......

Nick Vujicic

I'm always so inspired everytime I hear Nick Vujicic speak.  Despite having no arms and legs, he radiates God's joy.   When I came across a TV program today that he was speaking on, he said two things that really stood out to me:
"Motivation is temporary, but Inspiration is eternal."
and
"If you put your happiness in temporary things, your happiness will be temporary."
These are simple, yet profound and true statements.

Broken

As I was looking towards the New Year, and contemplating this past year, various thoughts crossed my mind.   Firstly, I'm amazed that we are starting yet another decade.   It just seemed like not too long ago we were preparing for Y2K, and here we are now about to start 2010.

This past year was nothing extraordinary.  I did seem to have some challenges since 2009 started; and throughout the year, I was dealing with being more tired than usual.  But, everything else progressed as usual.   It was, however, nice to end the year with the Panama Cruise with my family; allowing me to visit my fifth continent, South America.   So, now, I just have Africa and Antarctica left since I've been to North America, Europe, Asia, and Australia already; and then, I'd be able to say I've visited all the continents.

Recently, if I were to pick a word to describe the things in my life, I'd unfornately have to pick "broken".   I was wondering why there were so many things in my life that started breaking - my sofa, my sprinklers, my glasses, my watch, and most recently my dishwasher.   Yet, it makes me think that this may be preparing for my theme next year; that God can bring beauty from ashes (or from brokenness).   I place all things into HIS Hands, as I do my part in trying to address all these.    I look forward to seeing what He will teach me.

Christmas Day '09

In preparation for Christmas, last night, after Christmas Eve service at my church, I started reading some books that I had, related to Christmas.   One particular book, The Heart of Christmas, just spoke to me; and I read another section from it this morning as well.

I loved Max Lucado's chapter on "Joseph's Prayer".  He gave us a glimpse into what may have been going through Joseph's mind as Mary was about to give birth in the stable.   It truly was nothing like what he had expected.   Here they were, far away from home, without any comforts, family, or friends around them.  I do wonder, as Max Lucado did, whether Joseph started having doubts about what was happening and whether he heard God right.  But, what a wonderful reminder that it is at times like that, in which we just need to obey.  And, that's what Joseph did.

I was also encouraged by John Maxwell's chapter on "When you Follow a Star and Find a Stable".  I've been there, and in some ways, am there right now, with my "thorn".   The wise men were following a star; and I would think that they did not expect to find a King being born in a stable.  Yet, what a wonderful reminder, that when we do encounter unexpected "stables" in our lives, that we should just look for God.  That's what the wise men did, and they found Him.

This morning, I was also reading the letter from Focus on the Family in which Jim Daly quoted Mike Huckabee.....that Christmas is God doing the unexpected for the undeserving.   How true.   I am humbled by what my God and Savior has done for me.

Psalm 42:1-2

I've been thinking about the Psalm 42:1-2 verses for the last couple of days:
"As the deer pants for streams of water,
       so my soul pants for you, O God.
 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
       When can I go and meet with God?"

These first came to mind as I was returning back from vacation.  While I did attend a "fellowship meeting" on board and I was with my family and I was even preparing for the upcoming James Bible Study; yet, I felt "drier" than usual.    I had missed church for two weeks; I am typically more intensely preparing for each Sunday lesson; and I would have community small group midweek every couple of weeks.   By not having all these, my soul was thirsting for God.

I did have some great moments of communing with the LORD, as I tried to find quiet places to pray or read Scripture while on the ship.   But, environment, fellowship, and corporate worship do make a difference on our spiritual walk.

The last couple of days, I have really felt the need to stop and spend quiet time with the LORD.   I felt like I needed to be impacted by the true meaning of Christmas.   I realize that spending time meditating, thinking, reflecting, or contemplating is really important for listening to and learning from the LORD.   When I don't stop to satisfy the thirst, I'll miss out on truly meeting God.   Just going to church and even just doing routine reading of Scripture and prayer is just not as meaningful, without taking the time to really "drink in" from the streams of Living Water.

Christmas '09

It's that time of the year again, when I reflect on the true meaning of Christmas,  ponder all that God as done during the year, and look forward to what He will be doing the coming year.  

I am so grateful that Christ came to die for my sins and restore my relationship with HIM.  I am thankful for the gift of salvation and of eternal life.   What a privilege it is to KNOW HIM!

As I look back on the year, there was nothing extraordinarily new.   I am grateful for all that God is continuing to do in my Church and in my Adult Fellowship class.  If I were to point to what stood out the most this past year, it would be how God is making me more aware of World Vision.  It was good to be able to read the book, to give, and to be able to volunteer for the organization.

I do look forward to what God has in store for me the coming year.... maybe more involvement with World Vision, maybe another service/ministry, etc.   I just know that I will focus on the theme of "Beauty from Ashes", inspired by SCC and all that he has gone through this past year.

May God's will be done!  Amen!

Church Growth

I was just reading Chuck Swindoll's Pastor's Blog entry on church growth.   He said:
"A properly functioning church stays committed to its four biblical essentials: teaching, fellowship, breaking of bread, and prayer (see Acts 2:42)."   This is something valuable to keep in mind, for churches like mine that have doubled in size since we moved into our new church building. 

It is also good to keep in mind in relation to my class growth as well, since in many ways, we are like a church within a church.   And, I am glad to see that we have been focusing on those areas - Biblical teaching has definitely been a priority, we've been doing better in terms of fellowship, most of our gatherings involve "breaking of bread" in terms of eating together, and we have also incorporated prayer at the end of each class.

Four Days till Christmas

Is it really just four days until Christmas?   Where did the year go?

I just got back from a Panama Cruise with my family; and being away for two weeks in the middle of December can have quite an effect on this "busy" Christmas Season.  Fortunately, I was able to do my Christmas cards before I left; but, it also meant that I only had time to send cards to a limited list of people, and not to all the people I usually do.   I also had to restrict my gift giving as well, since I don't as much time to get together with friends.

In some ways, it was a more "bare bones" Christmas, which can be good.   It can help to focus on what's truly important, and to not be caught up in the busy-ness.   And, I was able to spend time with my family; and to relax and enjoy time off.

And, I still had an opportunity to catch some Christmas programs before I left for vacation; and now that I am back, I was able to be at my Church Christmas program, run the projector on Sunday and for Christmas Eve, and celebrate Christmas with my family at my home.

It took me 5 hours to get through my 600 work emails; and about 200 personal emails; and I still have some catching up to do.  But, my main work project has been delayed; and I still have this week to sort through all the other things before Christmas.

As for the Panama Cruise.   The Norwegian Star was nice; and going through the Panama Canal was definitely the highlight.    But, the ports were not as good as I expected.   I liked Cartegena, Columbia; but, the rest were a little disappointing - Puntarenas, Costa Rica; Hualtulco, Acapulco, and Cabo San Lucas, Mexico.   I did get to watch a few movies on the cruise.  The one I liked best was probably August Rush.  I love music, and it was interesting how they used listening to music as the way to bring that family back together again.  I also watched Kung Fu Panda.  It was funny, and I learned that the five martial arts styles are Monkey, Tiger, Crane, Snake, and Mantis.  And, I liked Julie & Julia, since it involved cooking.  As for other aspects of the cruise, the food in the dining rooms were actually not great; and there were flaws in some of the service.  However, overall, it was a good trip and a good get-away.   I did get sick at the end; so, I'm still recovering; but, I am grateful for having the opportunity to go.   It is important to value opportunities to spend time with family.

Hold My Heart

The last couple of days, I've been singing in my head, the chorus from Hold My Heart from Tenth Avenue North.  The lyrics are meaningful and the tune is somewhat hauntingly sad.

Here are the first stanza and chorus:
How long must I pray, must I pray to You?
How long must I wait, must I wait for You?
How long 'til I see Your face, see You shining through?
I'm on my knees, begging You to notice me.
I'm on my knees, Father will you turn to me?

One tear in the dropping rain,
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breakin' heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Won't You come close and hold my heart

FISH Christmas Concert '09

I went to the FISH Christmas concert last night.  It was a nice break from the craziness of work; and a good reminder to keep my focus on Christ and the true meaning of Christmas.

Only half of the Tenth Avenue North band was there; but, they were still really good to listen to.   Mike, the lead singer, is really talented and has charisma; but, more so, he is able to get his message across clearly.   He reminded us that Christianity is all about what Christ did for us; and is not so much about what we do.   We just live our lives in response to what HE did for us.  I can see Mike's joy and excitement for the LORD in the concert.

Matthew West was the headliner.   As usual, he is a good singer, has good songs, and has a good message as well.   He also has a good sense of humor; and even in his funny "Happy Day After Christmas" song, he was able to remind us that even when Christmas is over, the Light of Christ continues to shine throughout the year.  At one point in the concert, Matthew got audience participation to sing on one song; and he actually came down the stage, and stuck the microphone in front of me, since I happen to be in the front row.  That was funny, and memorable  (and maybe a little frightening ;-) ).

I pray for the music ministry of these Christian artists.  May God bless them and use them to reach many through their music.   And may God protect their families and give them strength through times when they are on the road.

Christmas Season '09

Now that Thanksgiving is over, the Christmas Season has officially started.  While I consider Easter the most significant HolyDay, Christmas is my favorite season.  I love the celebration of Christ's birth, the music, the decorations, the spirit of joy, peace, and goodwill to family and friends.

In just reflecting back over the Thanksgiving weekend, I clearly see the transition into Christmas.   On Wednesday, I marinated the turkey; and then, on Thursday, I pretty much cooked all day.   It probably would be good for me to write down some of the "lessons learned", since I only make many of these dishes once per year; and I usually forget what I learned the previous year:

• With the turkey, I was once again reminded that I can't follow the suggested cooking times nor the temperature.   I don't know if it's just my oven and/or thermometer; but, rather than roasting for the suggested 5-6 hours, I found that at 4 hours, my 17-lb turkey was already overcooked.  Also, the temperature read 160 deg (both in the dark and white meat) instead of the suggested 185 deg for dark and 160 for white.   So, for next time, I will just go with whenever the turkey looks done (as I do with chicken).   One thing that seemed like a good suggestion, was to start cooking with breast-side down.  I did it for the first hour and then flipped it; but, I'm wondering if it would be better if I left it and just flipped it the last hour instead  (to help prevent it from drying out).   Also, I found that it is not good to marinate with an oil/vinaigrette base.   The roasted vegetables turned out really sour; and the oil seems to compete with the butter flavor that is sometimes added to the turkey.  The thyme and italian parsley herbs were not bad for the flavoring - it was a light herbal seasoning.   I also put a whole orange cut-up in the cavaties.   It may have been too much citrus; however, it is better than lemon; since it is not as tart.    Next year, I should try to find a better marinade.
• The pumpkin bread with jam,  rolls,  cranberry sauce (cranberries, water, and sugar), gravy, roasted potatoes, yams, and asparagus were fine.  Nothing unusual.
• I probably could have put less spices into the hot apple cider.
• The green bean casserole actually turned out fairly well (cream of mushroom, french onion, milk, steamed green beans).  It didn't need the soy sauce, since it already was salty enough.
  
• When I broil to brown the marshmellows and the french onion, I really should watch them more carefully, since they easily burn.
• As for the mashed potatoes, I could have reduced the amount I made, so that the milk and butter would have more of an effect.   And I wonder if half-and-half would have made it creamier.   The suggestion to cut up the potatoes and steam them, were helpful, except, it seems to take a lot of time and work to peel and cut them.  
• I skipped the stuffing, since it seemed like I already had enough food; but, it was missed at the dinner table.  Next year, I may try stuffing from scratch.
  

Overall, I enjoyed cooking, and  everything looked nice.  It was also nice to spend time with family.   On Friday, we went shopping, adding to the biggest-shopping-day-of-the-year statistic.  However, I did not get up extremely early, so, I was not able to get the folding table and chairs set, which I was told sold out at 6AM. 

Saturday, I cleaned (had a minor mishap with the dishwasher Thursday night, and woke up with a wet floor on Friday, which I only had time to quickly mop) and then, put up my Christmas decorations inside the house.  Afterwards, I went to Irvine for a fellowship meeting with Greg Laurie, where Tenth Avenue North were guests artists.   I like their "By Your Side" song.

Sunday, after church, I put up my Christmas decorations outside, wrapped gifts, and started on Christmas cards.   It is nice to have a break from teaching my Sunday class.

Today, it's back to work.   I am glad, though, that I resisted doing work over the Thanksgiving Holiday.  This morning when I got in, there was nothing that was an emergency; and my email box didn't overflow either.   As I started with my favorite part of the day, spending time with the LORD, He filled me with peace and joy.  I praise God for always being with me - Emmanuel.  

Thanksgiving '09

It has really been a hectic week; and now that work is done, I can actually pause to think about Thanksgiving.   I truly have a lot to be thankful for.   As I look at the plight of the world around me, I am amazed at all the God has blessed me with.  He is truly gracious!

Also, I'm glad I was able to do most of my preparations beforehand, having already decorated, cleaned house over the weekend, plan the menu, and shop for groceries.   I just have to marinate the turkey tonight.  Tomorrow, I'm planning to make roast turkey with vegetables, cranberry sauce, gravy, stuffing, sweet potatoes, pumpkin bread, asparagus, green bean casserole, mashed potatoes, italian potatoes, and rolls.   Just being able to have such a meal makes me grateful in these economic times, and with so many in need around the world.  I truly am thankful!

Over the weekend, I watched Hotel Rwanda.  How devastating it must have been for the Tutsis to live through or to die in the genocide by the Hutus.   I can't even imagine how horrible that must have been.  That is a display of human depravity and our fallen sinful nature.   I praise Christ for giving us victory over sin!

Sunday, I wrapped up my last Bible Study series; and the class will be on break the rest of the year.   I am grateful for all the people in the class; and all the love and encouragement from them!

Work has been crazy.  I've been working about 15 hour days the last few days; fighting escalation fires.  Yet, I was able to see God at work in the midst of the circumstances; and I have peace and joy despite the stress.  This brings to mind Philippians 4:6-7:  "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.  And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."  Praise God!

I thank HIM, I praise HIM, I love HIM.  Amen!

3 H's

For a concise summary of the 1 & 2 Peter "Messages for the Suffering" Study, I came up with the 3 H's:  HOLINESS, HUMILITY, and HOPE.   These were threaded as themes throughout the letters, bounded on the basis of the WORD of GOD and the WORK of CHRIST.  

From the beginning of 1 Peter to the end of 2 Peter, it was emphasized that WORD of GOD was enduring and that all His promises are true.   It is also through His Word that He Creates as well as Judges.   And, of course, it is the WORK of CHRIST that saves us; and He suffered, giving us an example of the good that could come out of the midst of suffering.  As for the 3 H's:

• HOLINESS - throughout the letters, holy and godly living is essential.  The sanctification or refinement by fire process purifies our faith
• HUMILITY - it was emphasized that we are to love and serve one another; to support each other thru times of suffering; and in 1 Peter, he encouraged submission according to God's design for authority
• HOPE - Clearly, throughout the letters, Peter pointed them to the hope and eternal perspective
  

Bioethics

Last night on Three Rivers, the show dealt with the difficult topic of euthanasia.  While they did portray viewpoints on both sides of the topic in the episode, the not very surprising conclusion showed the patient riding off joyfully, through the cloud of grateful potential donor recipients and families, into the operating room sunset.   By the end of the show, everyone who had any objection at all was fully supportive of the patient's decision to end his life.   Even the TV audience was drawn into this through the effective use of sentimentality and utilitarian ideals.  It was not hard to garner sympathy for the plight of the patient, and to bring focus to all the good that would result from the person giving up his organs to those who needed them.  

While the challenges faced by the patient making the decision should not be ignored or minimized (e.g. quality of life, costs, etc); neither should the moral aspects.   No matter how much "good" can come out of it and no matter how much the "good" may outweigh the "bad"; ultimately, the ends should NOT justify the means.   Morally, taking away life, is still wrong.  Also "quality of life" is not enough of an argument to justify the taking of life either.   Otherwise, how would one determine at what point quality of life is bad enough to make it okay to end life, which would lead to the slippery slope of saying that suicide at other points in a person's life may be okay as long as they really wanted to die and preferred it over living.  This would lead to the difficulty of determing when suicide would ever be wrong.    Without moral absolutes, these troubling grey areas arise.   But, with moral absolutes, we recognize that life is precious and is to be protected, each person being a reflection of the Creator.  Also, while we desire to alleviate the pain the patient is enduring, from  the moral standpoint, are they ensured that the pain they are experiencing in this life is not more than the suffering to be encountered after this life ends?  To answer this question, there would need to be that clear worldview, which also forms the basis for morality.

Hope

It is fitting that the apostle Peter concludes his final letter with a message of Hope.  Throughout both letters, he's been constantly reminding the Church to keep an eternal perspective, to focus on the hope of glory, and to be alert and self-controlled, ready for Christ's coming again.

Hope is so important in the midst of suffering, because that is what helps us to persevere. And that was also Steven Curtis Chapman and Greg Laurie's message last night in the "Evening of Hope" at Harvest Church.  After having lost both their children in tragic accidents, they say that it is their hope in Christ that carried them through, along with the support and prayers of the Body of Christ.    Steven said that of all that people said to him during that time, what helped the most were those who would recognize that "there are no words" and offer their sympathy.  The songs Steven sang from his new album truly reflect the broken heart of a father crying out to God in a time of immense pain.   There is comfort in knowing when our loved ones are part of our eternal future.

Also, this weekend, I had a chance to go to a Reasons to Believe lecture on Theistic Evolution.   Dr. Ken Samples gave a very clear and reasonable presentation on some of the challenges with the theistic evolution view; and raised many good questions that would need to be resolved in order to still be consistent with some very basic doctrines on the fall of man and Christ's redemptive work.   It showed me how important it is to think critically; and also to loving and respectfully question, in keeping with 1 Peter 3:15, "Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect."  (And, as a fun side note, for answering all the final quiz questions correctly, I did win an eBay worthy bowling pin signed by all the RTB scholars)

Practical Christianity

So, I've been preparing for the next Bible Study series, and I'm planning to do a study in the Book of James, calling the series "Practical Christianity".   Reading through James, the areas we will focus on are:  stability, love, speech, humility, and patience.  This will be good, since it fits well with my search for the next steps - putting faith into action.   May God bless the study.

Last night was our last community small group meeting.  We are in the middle of the PeaceMaker study; and this week's lesson was on restoring gently.   I do find that confronting is difficult; but, it is part of the restoring process.   We don't really have control over the other person's reaction; but, as long as we prayerfully and lovingly confront with the purpose of restoring, we are doing what we can and can leave the rest to God.

It is neat to see that the wisdom of God effectively applies to everyday life.  I can't imagine having to face the decisions and challenges of life without the guidance provided in Scripture.

Restlessness

It is interesting that I was about to chide myself for feeling restless, but I came across this quote from Thomas Edison that actually throws it into a more positive light.  I didn't think of restlessness as being necessary for progress; but, it makes sense that we wouldn't be motivated to change, unless there was some sort of dissatisfaction with the status quo. 

Granted, we should be content in our circumstances (Phil 4:11), in our attitude towards whatever curves life throws at us.    Yet, it does not mean that we shouldn't try to improve circumstances if we were able to do so.  Thus, I like this perspective, of trying to use my restlessness to motivate positive change.

It would help if I could identify the cause of this restlessness.  It's kind of ironic that part of it is because I was able to complete the major items on my "To do" list.   No longer having that feeling of always having something that needs to be done and driving at full speed; I really should allow myself a chance to slow down and enjoy, since I now have the time.   Maybe in slowing down, I can think more clearly and leisurely about what the next steps are.   I can plan for what's next, without having life dictate it based on what's headed my way.   And maybe, it would allow me the chance to refill my energy and look at ways in which I can invest in the lives of others or to meet their needs.

Actually, it's not like I have nothing to do.  I should be grateful that it's actually more manageable.   I'm still teaching Sunday class, I still have normal responsibilities, and I still have the occasional non-usual thing that pops up (e.g. tenant registration, STR lecture, etc).  

The best use of the little "extra" time that I have, would be to be in prayer and to think about what's next:  mentoring? missions? outreach?      And I can use this time to find renewal to be ready for the next wave.   I should keep working at the things I enjoy, like cooking (this weekend, my garlic spinach turned out well, because I found that when the wok is heated really high, and I just saute the garlic and spinach a little, there seems to be a smoky flavor and the color stays strong).  Also,  I can prepare for the next Bible Study series.

May I be an effective steward of my time.

Veterans' Day

Today is Veterans' Day, "a day to be dedicated to the cause of world peace" on the anniversary of of the signing of the Armistace that ended World War I.  Although true "world peace" will not be established until Christ comes back again, I am truly grateful for all those who serve and have served in the military to fight for the freedoms that we do have in our country. 

I pray for comfort and healing for the families that have lost loved ones.   I pray for the families of those whose loved ones are currently stationed in other parts of the world in active duty for our country.   May God protect them and help them through all the challenges of being far apart.   May God bless America; and may we turn back to being "one nation under God."

Servants' Hearts

"For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ."  2 Peter 1:5-8

As Peter was facing death, this was what he emphasized in his letter to the Church, that to be effective and productive fruitful Christians, we need to live godly lives exhibiting the above qualities built upon the foundation of faith.

This weekend, my class demonstrated what it means to love and to serve, by going over to one class member's house to do yardwork and repairs as she prepares her house to be put on the market, at this difficult time in her life.   It was amazing to see their efficiency and hard work.   And on Sunday, the day afterwards, it meant a lot to see the teenage daughter of the class member smile and wave to me across the church lobby.   The class had been a great example of being the Body of Christ to her and to her mom.  May God be glorified as we live in reflection of HIM.

Empty InBox

This week flew by; but, I'm happy to say that my InBox is basically empty right now.   I've been able to take care of my list of all pending tasks; and it feels really good.   I'm sure my InBox will start filling up again soon; but, for today, I'm going to enjoy it.  After having gone through feelings of being overwhelmed under my pile of responsibilities, it is such a neat feeling to look back and see how God helped me handle them all.  So, for today, I can be thankful and truly relax.

2 Peter 1:3 says "His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness."  I have seen and experienced personally how God, through His power, has given me all that I need for living my life for HIM; and I praise HIM!   While I may still encounter trials and challenges, I can trust in HIM to carry me through.   Amen!  

As my pastor said last week, the victorious Christian life is not that God takes away our difficulties, but that He helps us endure through them.   And, as we encounter trials, we will only be refined by the fire and our faith when it is tested is purified; so that we become more and more like HIM.

Enjoyment

I am reminded that, just as we studied in Ecclesiastes, enjoyment of life is a gift from God, and that apart from HIM, all is meaningless.   In all that we do, whether it be relaxing or serving, being able to "enjoy" is important.   Just as I am to be willing and eager in serving, I should find balance in having fun in relaxing as well.

As I look back on this weekend, I am pleased to see that I did enjoy serving; but, I also found enjoyment in other areas:

• I had a chance to watch figure skating - they are currently halfway through the Grand Prix series season.   
• I also decorated my dining table for Fall, leading to Thanksgiving.   
• I experimented with some new dishes in cooking.   I made a sun-dried tomato basil chicken with olives that turned out really well.  I also made a curry chicken breast, taking ideas from something I saw on one of the cooking shows.   The secret was to use a mallet to pound the chicken breast so that it was more tender and of an even thickness; and to fully marinate it (with curry, salt, pepper, and oil) before putting on the grill.  I also pan-fried cucumbers with onion and basil.  I don't often cook cucumbers; but, it actually has quite an interesting taste cooked.  
• I had a craving for "Cookies & Cream" ice cream, and it was a pleasure to be able to satisfy that craving
  
• And then, I went to the home of one of my community group members, who was showing her slides from her missions trip to Haiti.   I do have a heart for missions; and I'm still praying for what new area God is leading me into.   The poverty in Haiti is truly heart-breaking; and the contrast to the wealth we have in our country is stark.  I need to determine how I can be most effective with my limited resources.

Well, the weekend is over, and it's back to work.  But I am reminded that in Ecclesiastes, it also said that even work is a gift from God to be enjoyed.

Shepherd

While I may have somewhat known it in the back of my mind, it has definitely become clear to me lately that in my Sunday Adult Fellowship class, my responsibilities extend beyond just teaching.   Just as in the 1 Peter 5 passage, many of the characteristics encouraged for elders and leaders of the Church, are so applicable to my role.   I do have to remember that I am to be a caring shepherd, and willing overseer, and an eager servant.  And what a humbling responsibility it is to know that I am to be an example to those I lead.

While teaching may be part of  "feeding" the sheep, "caring" for them means knowing their needs, praying for them, and finding ways to help with practical needs.   It means taking the time to talk to each one of them, including time for prayer towards the end of class, and serving, like we are doing this coming weekend, going over to a class member's home to help in yardwork, repairs, and moving things.  Being an overseer means that I also have to "oversee" all that goes on in the class - to organize, to communicate schedules & events, to ensure details are taken care of, etc. - kind of like how we were able to put the basket together for a church function.   Different people in class brought separate items; and I had to coordinate, inform, and package them together.   It was actually good to see how it turned out nicely.

Most importantly, I am comforted to be reminded in the 1 Peter 5 passage, that Jesus is the Chief Shepherd; and that I can "Cast all [my] anxiety on HIM because He cares for [me]" (vs 7)

The "Bubble"

Three Rivers is one of those shows that are on the "Bubble" ready to "pop", headed for the chopping block.  Once again, it's consistent with my general track record - most shows that I would watch typically get canceled.   Yes, this show had the disadvantage of having to compete with baseball playoffs and already popular shows.   And having a weekend timeslot meant that I would miss it because of something else I had to do.  Granted, it's not a fascinatingly amazing show; but, it has a lot of positive elements in it.  It also has a good cast, especially with Alex O'Loughlin as the lead.   And it's neat that the show raises awareness of organ donation.

In thinking about the competition for viewership these days, it reminds me that we do live in an entertainment media culture with a highly selective palate and a generally short attention span.  "Here today and gone tomorrow" seems to be an appropriate phrase to describe most shows.   Even some shows that were popular last season now find themselves caught in the "Bubble". 

Is this just a reflection of where we are in our fast-paced, fast-food, faddish culture?  When we look around, "loyalty", "long-term commitment", and "nice & relaxing" have become a rarity; for the culture seems to be always ready to move onto the next best thing when the current best thing no longer excites.

This gives an interesting perspective on the "Messages to the Suffering" Bible Study series.  In our culture, there tends to be a focus on pursuing enjoyment and pleasure, and avoiding suffering and difficulties.   This leads to that short-term mentality, where we just "escape" when the going gets tough.   And, it is true that this would prevent the development of proven character through the endurance and perseverance in trials.

Evangelism and Apologetics

I went to the opening lecture last night for the Thoughtful Evangelism conference, with Lee Strobel speaking and panel discussion with Mark Mittelberg, Carmen Mayell, and Erik Thoennes, hosted by Craig Hazen.  What I gained most from going, was that I was reminded that I need to be more purposeful in my evangelism; and not just hope that it somehow happens as I wander through life obliviously.   The other perspective that was made clear was that, in this skeptical age, we find that we often need apologetics, in order to remove the barriers before we can get to the point where we can present the gospel message.   And it was interesting that in tying back to 1 Peter 3, Peter felt the need to encourage believers to be prepared to give a defense of the hope that they have in them, because they were facing a time of intense opposition as well.

Lee Strobel described evangelism as the "Unexpected Adventure", since we never know what will happen when we engage with others in opportunities to be salt and light.   He told his story of misinterpreting "Buenos Dias" for "What is a deist?"; and of "ricochet evangelism" at his business office in Chicago.   He then gave 4 things from the life of Christ that we could apply to evangelism, reminding us that God loves our lost friends even more than we do:

1. Before talking to His neighbor about the Father, He would've talked to the Father about His neighbor (And His prayers continued until His final gasp on the cross) => Keep praying and don't give up
2. He made it clear that His door was always open for any questions (e.g. John the Baptist's doubts surfaced, when the tough times in prison came, and Jesus answered his questions with assurances) => Don't be afraid to put our faith to the test b/c we have a faith that is defensible and TRUE
3. He didn't just share His faith, He showed it, mainly by serving => When we serve, sacrifice, and love others as Jesus did, it opens doors in a winsome attractive way (i.e. How's your "compassion radar"?)
4. He would be authentic in the way He related to His message, embodying it => remember that we represent Jesus to the world, and they are looking for gentleness, caring, integrity, and authenticity

It is clear that both words and actions go hand-in-hand.  There's got to be a clear proclamation of Christ in the midst of social action.  And there needs to be a balance between the "negative" (e.g. dismantling an errant worldview) and "positive" (e.g. sharing the blessings of the gospel message).   Evangelism is both a process and the "moment", so we should not see faith as a pass/fail thing, but we also need to bring them to the moment of decision.

Also, just as Peter kept reminding his readers the importance of holiness, a person needs to be aware of their sin and their need for a Savior in order to come to Christ.  However, our society today does not seem to have as strong an awareness of their sin; and the best way to reveal it is for them to behold Christ and recognize the contrast between His Holiness and their sinfulness.

There was an interesting quote about DL Moody mentioned, that he may have botched the King's English, but he knew the King.   In the same way, we don't need to have all the academic credentials to be effective, but, we do need a real genuine faith based on sound reason.

What Now?

I finally finished reading The Hole in Our Gospel.  So, "What now?"   That's exactly what Richard Stearns was saying at the end of the the book:  "He is calling you right now to do that which He created only you to do.  Can you hear Him?"

For the past year, God has really shown me that my heart does need to be "broken by the things that break the heart of God".  I still feel like I'm being prepared for the next step in my life; it's just not clear to me yet what that is.   Meanwhile, I've been trying to serve where I can:  my class now has an appointed person in the role of "outreach", and we have plans to help at COA where we did some painting for Serve Day; I have been giving to World Vision, and had a chance to volunteer to help with signing up sponsors for children; and,  I've been looking into volunteering for Habitat for Humanity and Samaritan's Purse.

As I am praying for where God would lead me next, I am so glad that I've been able to read The Hole in Our Gospel.  It is a book that I would highly recommend; in fact, I already obtained another copy to give as a gift.  There is so much in the book that awakens awareness of the needs around the world, inspires compassion and action, and touches the heart. 

A few of the thoughts in the book that really stood out to me are:

• It is so true that the "whole gospel" means that in addition to sharing the message of salvation,  we do need to be Christ's hands and feet
• When God calls, He really can work through so many ways; and we need to be listening, prepared, and willing
• As good stewards of all that God has given to us, it truly is important to be purposeful with our Time, Talent, and Treasure  (and our perspective on being "entrusted" rather than "entitled" can really make a difference)
• The statement that not all parts of the American Dream are consistent with Christian values really helps to clarify why we shouldn't be overly focused on seeking material comfort and success.  Instead, we should be focusing on God's Will and what His goals and plans are for our lives.

There were a couple of quotes from the book that also really stood out to me:

• "Vision without action is merely a dream.  Action without vision just passes the time. Vision with action can change the world."  -- Joel Barker
• "The probability that we may fail in the struggle ought not to deter us from the support of a cause we believe to be just."  -- Abraham Lincoln

What a great book.  And may God truly use me for His purposes.  Amen.

Fitness

Replacing my office chair with a fitness ball has been working out well for me.  At times when I need a break, I am easily able to stretch, do some crunches, and even have some fun bouncing.   And, if it helps me burn a few extra calories a day with all the balance adjustments, all the better.

My snack fast has also been going well.   I've been able to spend time in prayer, not only for those in need, but also for wisdom for the leaders to make decisions to help those in need, and for the Church to be effective in ministering to those in need.  I am still praying for how I can be more effective, in addition to praying, giving, and occasional volunteering.  The Holidays offer many opportunities for short-term serving and giving; but, I would also like to find something that I would be able to get involved with long-term.

Meanwhile, it's been good to stay on track.  I'm making progress dropping from my "equilibrium weight" to my "threshold weight".   I would love to reach my "good weight" and maybe even my "ideal weight".

This week, I also decided to cook mainly vegetarian.   I made Dal (Indian Lentils), asparagus, squash, and yams.   Hopefully, by keeping my calorie intake low, I can still lose weight with moderate exercise, not having to strain my body too much physically.

Productivity and Organization

There are times when I feel like I'm caught in Dilbert's cynical representation of productivity and organization; but, fortunately, this weekend wasn't one of those times.  I truly feel like I had a productive weekend.  I was able to tie up many of the loose ends (e.g. property tax, car registration, AAA, bank, post office, etc) and take care of normal responsibilities (e.g. groceries, cooking, lawn, laundry, Bible Study final prep and review, etc).   In addition, I even exercised and got a fitness ball.   It's a good feeling to feel somewhat caught up and back on track.

I had heard the benefits of using a fitness ball instead of an office chair while working, and I'm excited to start doing that.   Also, this week, I'm going to commit to a fast on snacking.  Each time I get the snack cravings, I'm going to, instead, offer a prayer for those who truly are suffering hunger pangs throughout the world.   I am praying that the Church will be effective in reaching out; and that I will find how I can most effectively help as well.

It's also neat that besides being productive and getting back on track healthwise; I also had a chance to enjoy watching the Gymnastics World Championships (in London) and the start of the Figure Skating Grand Prix (in Paris).  Those are probably two of my favorite sports to watch; and it always motivates me to see the dedication and excellence of the athletes.  This year, two particular athletes stood out.  For both of them, this was their first senior event, and because of their abilities and hard work, they were actually able to excel and win medals:  Kayla Williams the gold medal in women's vault at the Individual gymnastics events, and Adam Rippon the bronze medal in men's singles at Trophee Eric Bompard.  It was great to see how excited they each were when they realized they had won.  Their joy just reflected the culmination of their hard work and anticipation and hope.

This inspires me to continue to seek meaningful areas in which I can commit to.   I am goal-oriented; and I want to be able to work at something I could be effective at; and would contribute to God's Work.

Tying Loose Ends

It's gotten to the point where I feel like things may start to unravel from having too many loose ends.  Each unfinished responsibility, by itself, would be manageable; but, to have so many makes me feel uncomfortably at risk.  So, I will do all I can to complete as many open items on my "To Do" list as possible.   Granted, there are some things that for whatever reasons, I will be unable to close or resolve; and they will still need to be left open; but, there are other things that I have been putting off due to lack of time and energy.  These, I am resolved to tackle this weekend. 

This reminds of the phrase, "When it rains, it pours".   At my Community Group last night continuing through the PeaceMaker study, I realized that because of the conflicts that I am facing, such as those at work, I've actually been needing ways to "escape" or "unstress", like watching movies or reading stories, taking me to situations remote from the stress and difficulty of daily life.  It's kind of like the article I read before, about why the movie industry is still thriving in our current economic times - people need something to help them, albeit temporarily, escape from the harsh realities of life.   As long as they do not hinder our ability to face our responsibilities and deal with our challenges, I think that temporary "escapes" are good for unstressing and unwinding, like vacations, retreats, music, etc.

Also, last night, we read the passage with Philippians 4:8, which again reminded me of my goal to keep my mind on things of the above.  I have been evaluating areas of my life to see where I could do better.  As my Father is holy, I do seek to be holy, to be set apart.  It is interesting that in 1 Peter, we've seen that holiness is actually an important part of being able to endure through suffering; for, it enables us to have a good conscience, to trust that God will judge justly, and reminds us that we are "strangers and aliens" for this world is not our home.

Through the PeaceMaker study, I am seeing that thus far, I've been more of a peacekeeper, than a peacemaker.   Peacekeeping is not as effective, and sometimes, it just means that it is a temporary peace, and battle breaks out again at a later time and all past unresolved conflict can resurface.   I tend to employ escape responses; and "silence" or "avoidance" is actually a form of "punishment" and "judgment" against the other person.  I do need to work better at communication and peacemaking.  Fortunately, though, as a phlegmatic personality type, I do fairly well in avoiding conflict; and I do generally "let things go".   I just need to ensure that I do truly "let things go"; and not merely put them on the back burner for a later time.

Of course, when I consider conflicts, I inevitably think back on my past experience in probably one of my most challenging conflicts.  I feel that through that experience, I did follow Biblical principles of still loving the person and trying to exhibit Christ-like character.   I feel that I could have communicated more clearly; and I will be wiser in the future in how I choose to invest in the lives of others.   However, as I try to understand the situation better, I think that what I can say is that what she was guilty of was deceit, hypocrisy, and slander.  It is interesting that most of these are referenced in 1 Peter 2:1.   In looking back, my heart was right and I am at peace that I did what was right.  I feel that full closure comes from being able to "tie up" all loose ends; and over time, I find that I'm able to do just that.

Christ's Example

"To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps."  From Christ's example of suffering, in the 1 Peter 2 study, I learned that to endure, I just need to ensure that I am doing what is right, to trust that God will judge justly, and to look for the good the could come out of the suffering (vs 22-25).  And from the beginning of the passage, I learn that Christian growth and maturity comes from getting rid of all that hinders in our old nature; and craving God's Word.   It was a good study; and I praise God for the encouragement of seeing Him at work in my class.  It was neat that before class, I was just talking to one person who mentioned that 1 Peter 2:9 was her saving verse:  "declare the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light".  Also, during worship service, they announced that we have a new worship director at church.

Saturday, I had a chance to spend much of the day in fellowship with a good friend of mine.  I find that we share similar perspectives in so many areas.  For example, we both recognize that morning is probably the best time to have devotions, and I've truly learned to appreciate that on Saturday mornings when I've had great times of reviewing for my Sunday class.  However, because of our work and schedules, we're not able to focus and take the time that we would like; so, evenings turn out to be the best times for us.  Also, as she was telling me how she used times like doing dishes to review memory verses, and when I could see that in her regular conversations she is able to incorporate the truths of Scripture, I am challenged to work harder on keeping my mind on things of the above.  As Philippians 4:8 says, "Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things."

Rejection or Regret

This Steven Warburton oil "Rejection Through Indifference" caught my eye; and in some ways expresses how I am feeling.  Not that I am indifferent, nor that I feel rejected through indifference; but, there is an underlying sadness depicted, that I can relate to....

But, what I really wanted to blog about was that in one of the books I was reading there was a quote that made me stop and wonder whether or not it was true.  The book said "It is easier to live with rejection than to live with regret."   I suppose it would be true if a person was hiding their true self, for fear of rejection; since, they may eventually regret that they lived their lives according to what others expected of them or what they thought would allow them to be accepted.  What about a person who is true to themselves; but, plays it safe and avoids situations that may result in rejection?  Is it really better to take the risk?   I would say that would depend on the outcome.  

I find that the problem with that statement is that it implies an either/or; whereas it is a very possible scenario that a person could feel both rejected AND regret taking the risk.  And that is what happened to me.   I took the risk and felt rejected; so, I regret taking the risk.   Does that indicate that the outcome was not worth the risk?   Possibly.....

Security

I do not wantto lose that sense of security that has taken so long to build up.  For years, slowly by slowly, one hurdle overcome after another, I finally developed some measure of self-confidence and security in my abilities and experience.   Yet, ever since Thursday, my feelings of security have been shaken.  This shows me, that even though I know that it is God who has helped me to build up my confidence, that He is the One Who guided me and helped me to learn and to grow and to become the person that I am; my confidence may not be as wholly in the LORD as I'd like to think.   If my confidence was truly in the LORD, then nothing in this world should be able to shake it.  But, as I analyze what I am going through, I am actually regaining the lost ground by focusing on the TRUTHs, rather than the doubts that have infiltrated.

The TRUTHs are that God knows my heart, He knows Who I am, He knows my abilities, and He is the One who has been with me through my growth and experience.  I need to take my eyes off of my own insecurities I have had since I was a child; and not allow those to cause fear and doubt in my life.  When an incident occurs that triggers my insecurities, and opens the floodgates that previously kept all the associated emotions at bay, it's not so much the incident itself, but more so all the unresolved feelings that the incident brought back.

However, God loves me and I fear Him.  I also know Him, through my personal walk with Him, through my studies of His Word, through all that He has taught me.   He "is able to do immeasurably more than [I could] ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within [me].  (Eph 3:20)   After all, isn't His strength made perfect in my weakness (2 Corinth 12:9)?  So, my weaknesses remind me to trust in Him, and they keep me humble.   May He be glorified in my life.

Brainstorm

Last night was the Brainstorm fundraising concert for B.R.A.I.N. featuring David Klinkenberg.  It is such a worthy cause, being able to provide a community and residential housing care for the brain injured.   It is neat also that this brings awareness of the needs of those who have sufferred brain injuries while in the military.  

Sue Reub and the organization did such a great job organizing the event.   I do pray God's blessings for this organization, that it will be a ministry to those who have suffered brain injury, as well as to their families.   I do see God's working in the Reub family to bring them to this point in which they are able to help others through what they have suffered through their own experience with Kristin.

As always, I also enjoyed hearing David play the fiddle.  He mentioned that he is planning to have another album out, with patriotic songs.  His rendition of the Star Spangled Banner during the concert was stirring.   But, the piece I enjoyed the most was when he played "As the Deer".   It is, of course, one of my favorite worship songs; and it made me wonder if he is drawn to the song for the same reasons that I am - that besides the beautiful melody and words, the story behind it is meaningful to me and one that I could relate to.

Refined by Fire

We will be starting our new Bible Study series "Peter - Messages for the Suffering" in the books of  I & II Peter.  The image from I Peter 1:7 of gold refined by fire is a great illustration of our faith being made more pure and genuine as we are tested through trials.  As the "dross" in our lives burn away, we become more and more like Christ.   In this first chapter, we learn how important it is that in the midst of our sufferings, we turn our eyes away from ourselves and our circumstances, and onto God and the hope that is to come.  The sufferings of this world will end, for our eternal home is in heaven.  We are not alone in our sufferings - the passage encourages believers to love and support one another and reminds us that Christ also suffered and is with us.  So, in the midst of suffering, we can cling to our hope and we can still rejoice; for we are assured that everything that God has said in His Word is living and enduring, and stands forever.

Newsweek article

I came across a Newsweek article that so reflects some of the thoughts I had when President Obama was being elected.  It's an article by Howard Fineman "The Limits of Charisma - Mr President, please stay off TV".   In his article, Fineman said, "Despite his many words and television appearances, our elegant and eloquent president remains more an emblem of change than an agent of it. He's a man with an endless, worthy to-do list—health care, climate change, bank reform, global capital regulation, AfPak, the Middle East, you name it—but, as yet, no boxes checked "done." This is a problem that style will not fix."  He also said "The president's problem isn't that he is too visible; it's the lack of content in what he says when he keeps showing up on the tube."   I totally agree.  I've always felt that actions do speak louder than words.

Relax

I like the idea of a "RELAX" button on our keyboards, and it would probably be pressed pretty often.  While I think I have learned to deal with stress and pressure fairly well over the years, I may not have learned how to "relax" very well.

Take this weekend, for example.   After such a busy month, I managed to keep this weekend free of any extra scheduling, aside from normal weekend chores and activities.   Yet, when I actually found myself with hours of free time, I didn't quite know what to do with myself.   I tried my usual "relax and have fun" activities - playing the piano, reading a book, and watching some TV; but I was somehow not in the mood for any of those for longer than a few minutes at a time.  Surprisingly, I was pretty restless.  I ended up going shopping.   I suppose it is one form of relaxation and unwinding; but, I try not to resort to it often, especially in this economy.   I did buy a nice new pair of well-made leather boots, which, to be fair, I did need, since my old pair is falling apart. 

As I think about it, when it comes to relaxation, I may have been influenced by my mom.  She was one person who never seemed to be able to relax, even when we were on family vacations, because she kept looking at all the things that needed to get done.   It's true that we have a never-ending "to do" list; however, we're just not built that way.   Even in creation, God gave us the example of rest:  "By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work."  (Genesis 2:2)

On a weekly basis, I think I do fairly well, in making sure that I'm not running myself ragged 24 hours a day 7 days a week.  I have been able to balance out my schedules by fitting in times for my normal "relax and have fun" activities (playing piano, reading, and watching TV), exercise, and even cooking.   And, when I plan for it, I can "relax" on major vacations.   What I find is that I need to be purposeful in all that I do.   I take time out during the week to keep balanced; I take major vacations to get away; but, I don't do so well with big chunks of time with nothing to do, which is okay.  So, yesterday, after church, instead of "vegging" the rest of the day, I went out and did yardwork.  It was actually quite satisfying.   I was able to finish clearing all the growing vines; and cut all the hedges in my backyard.   After the major yardwork earlier this year, I am happy to find that my backyard is now considered manageable.  It was even a beautiful day to be outside.

All in all, it is important to keep ourselves balanced and ensure we have time to relax and rest; however, I think that there is such a thing as too much relaxation.  One verse that kept coming to mind was: "Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil"  (Ephesians 5:15-16)

Who's Crazy Now?

I just finished reading Who's Crazy Now? by Susan Rueb and Todd Clements.  Part 1 is the story of Kristin, my Pastor Jerry's and Sue's daughter; and Part 2 provides information about the different parts of the brain and their function.

The story is truly heartrending, especially since I know them personally.  I was in tears as I read the story.   I appreciate Sue's willingness to be open and vulnerable as she told the story of her family's struggles, feelings, and emotions in dealing with Kristin's brain injury, which took 30 years to correctly diagnose.  The thought that kept going through my mind is how they have been refined through fire.   I have always felt that one of the reasons Pastor Jerry so effectively ministers and speaks God's truth was because of the deep faith he has developed through trials.   What a difficult life lesson to be living through; but, it does show how we do develop godly character through perseverance and endurance in difficulties.  May God continue to be with Kristin, Pastor Jerry, Sue, and the whole family.   I also pray for the effectiveness of the B.R.A.I.N organization (http://www.thebrainsite.org) in helping others with brain injury.   I also pray for the fundraising concert they will be holding on Oct 1st with David Klinkenberg.

I've seen evidence of how precious and fragile our brains can be.  Part 2 of the book was a good reminder of what a vital organ the brain is.  The frontal lobe controls personality, organization, problem solving, critical thinking, etc.  The temporal lobes affect understanding, processing, emotions, memory, music, etc.   The cerebellum affects movement and speech.  The parietal lobe affects sensory processing, map abilities, etc.  The cingulate gyrus affects attention, ideas, additions, etc.  And the deep limbic system affects motivation, moods, etc.  How important it truly is to protect that valuable and vital organ.

Flashforward

The highly anticipated and publicized series premiere for Flashforward aired last night.  It has a very impressive cast, and a pretty fast-paced script.

While I do occasionally watch shows like CSI, the Mentalist, and  Lie to Me, drama and action are typically not my type of genre; and neither is Sci-Fi, although I do appreciate Star Wars, Star Trek, etc   I would have to admit that the main draw to this show for me was the chance to see Joseph Fiennes on the small screen.  I'm a fan of his from his "Luther", "Shakespeare in Love" and "Elizabeth" movies.   He strikes me as a very serious and intelligent actor, with character and integrity.  But, additionally, I did also find the premise of this show to be an interesting concept.

What would I think if I flashforwarded 6 months into the future?   Do I believe in fate?  Well, from the Christian perspective, I do believe in some measure of "predestination".   Scripture says that God chooses us; and He certainly is omniscient, knowing all things past, present, and future.   However, He has also given us "free will"; so, we do have the ability to make choices in our lives.   It's a balance somewhere in between the two - our lives are not just marching through a pre-scripted fate, nor is every part of our lives fully in our control.

I believe that I have, on very rare occasions, been given very small glimpses into the future in some of my "dreams".  Some of them did come true and I would experience feelings of deja vu.  To me, that's probably how I would view a flashforward..... that it is a glimpse into the future that will come true; but, I had contributions to the choices made that got me to that point.   I guess that begs the question, if we tried really hard to avoid that vision of the future, would it change?   Personally, I'm going to go with "no".

So, if I were given a flashforward 6 months into the future, what would I want to see?  It would be March 2010.  I think it would be neat if I saw myself involved in a ministry new to me, some sort of a community service or outreach; or maybe even speaking at an event.   This is a good reminder to me to continue to dream God's dreams, to have vision for the future rather than just living day-to-day.

Health

It's often easy to take our health for granted; but, it doesn't take much to make us realize how important it is.   When there is any part of our health that is not functioning normally, it can really have an effect on us as a whole.

I've been working on trying to stay healthy.  This week, I've been recording all that I've been eating; and so far, I've been exercising 30 minutes a day consistently.  I've dropped down to my hard-to-cross-barrier weight - the one that I get to and seem to get stuck on, since it's hard to get below it.  I'm working towards getting to my good weight or maybe even my ideal weight.   I also need to make doctor appointments for my physical and the periodic checks.

My mom had to go into urgent care a couple of times these last couple of weeks.  She is currently on antibiotics; and I'm praying for a full recovery and that her test results will show that there is nothing serious. 

Also, there are so many people that I know struggling with one health issue or another.  In my class, one person's granddaughter suffers from spinal dystrophy and another is being tested for a brain tumor.

This reminds me of the passages in the Bible on spiritual gifts and how we are to work together as the Body of Christ.   When one part is not functioning, it does hurt the whole.

Significance

It's something that I've thought about and talked about before:  the search for significance, the need to feel significant, the fear of insignificance...... 

On the surface, significance seems like it would go hand-in-hand with pride, and would only feed the ego.  However, ironically, true significance actually comes from making a positive difference in the lives of others.  To me, significance is allowing God to use us as part of His Plan in this world.

Significance also doesn't just come in the BIG things.  It was in the little ways in which I was able to help others when I felt significant - pointing to the right person to teach Bible study methods on the Mexico missions trip, giving someone a bottle of water to satisfy their thirst, and helping to sign up sponsors for children in need.