Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Exiting
It looks like it is time to "exit the freeway" (Reference "Response" blog entry from Dec 29th). People can sometimes be so complex; and this almost feels like deja vu. I received a reply from my estranged friend, and I am reassured that she is not in need of any immediate help and seems to be doing the same.
However, the picture that she has painted of me is one that is not very pretty. From my perspective, it is an inaccurate portrait; and I struggle with deciding whether or not to send a reply. I think I would only be defending myself to someone who may not be ready to see a different perspective. And even if I were successful in defending myself in this situation at this time; who is to say that she may not revert back or that something else may come up. The root cause has not changed; and there is not much I can do about it at this time, except to continue to pray.
I know that I placed value on the friendship and on her as a person, because I cared about her and I recognize the inherent worth in each person because they are created in the image of God. Yet, I also see that until she is ready to pull out a new canvas and paint a more realistic picture; the chasm will continue to exist.
So, I've restarted the car, and am headed for the off-ramp. I can always get back on the freeway when I need to; but, for now, I no longer need to put on the facade. I can just be cordial without anticipating anything more. I will respond when she corresponds; and I will still be here for her. I place her in God's Hands; and may He continue His Healing Work in her life. Amen.
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