New Year's Eve '08

The last day of 2008 is now here. Tomorrow starts a whole New Year. I've already been reminiscing quite a bit over all that has happened this year; and I am in anticipation of what God will do this coming year. I would think that my theme is one in which I should expect things to happen, because isn't that what not being afraid to take risks suggests? So, as I contemplate here on New Year's Eve, do I want to look back or look forward? This is probably the best day of the year to do both. After all, it does represent the end of one year and the start of a new one. Looking back, I think I may have been able to dream bigger dreams; but, I am grateful for the dreams that God did fulfill. What a blessing to see my Church and my class grow. What a blessing to be able to be baptized in the Jordan River. What a blessing to have been able to go to Sydney, Australia and catch an opera and concert. Looking forward, I have great hopes of how God may use me and stretch me through boldness for HIM. I do anticipate having the privilege of being able to touch the lives of others through caring for them more deeply. I know that God is still at work in me; and I trust that He will continue to be. I would say that in the last couple of years, each year has gotten better and better; and I can clearly see ways in which I have grown. I am deeply thankful for all that God has blessed me with; and I praise Him for being my LORD God Almighty.

Exiting

It looks like it is time to "exit the freeway" (Reference "Response" blog entry from Dec 29th). People can sometimes be so complex; and this almost feels like deja vu. I received a reply from my estranged friend, and I am reassured that she is not in need of any immediate help and seems to be doing the same. However, the picture that she has painted of me is one that is not very pretty. From my perspective, it is an inaccurate portrait; and I struggle with deciding whether or not to send a reply. I think I would only be defending myself to someone who may not be ready to see a different perspective. And even if I were successful in defending myself in this situation at this time; who is to say that she may not revert back or that something else may come up. The root cause has not changed; and there is not much I can do about it at this time, except to continue to pray. I know that I placed value on the friendship and on her as a person, because I cared about her and I recognize the inherent worth in each person because they are created in the image of God. Yet, I also see that until she is ready to pull out a new canvas and paint a more realistic picture; the chasm will continue to exist. So, I've restarted the car, and am headed for the off-ramp. I can always get back on the freeway when I need to; but, for now, I no longer need to put on the facade. I can just be cordial without anticipating anything more. I will respond when she corresponds; and I will still be here for her. I place her in God's Hands; and may He continue His Healing Work in her life. Amen.

Morally Bankrupt

My pastor concluded his "Strong Convictions in a Moral Fog" series yesterday with a sermon on evil. The topic is also related to the Truth Project discussion on Ethics and Morality. Naturally (no pun intended), in a discussion about morality, we need to address our society's incorrect assumptions that everything is relative and that there are no moral absolutes. This is tied with humanism (man is the measure of all things), situational ethics (right and wrong determined by circumstance), and utilitarianism (right and wrong determined by what is best for the majority). Interestingly and sadly, I've heard all three of these "arguments" in discussions with non-believing friends. Situational ethics is related to sociological law - morality being determined by the prevailing viewpoint of society. And, something we see clearly in our society, is the incorrect notion that we do not need God or religion to make moral choices. On the contrary....God's design for the "State" is for the leader to rule under the ultimate leadership and guidance of God. And that morality is best defined when aligned with the ethical absolutes, based on who God is. The pastor talked about the signs of a morally bankrupt society, taken from Isaiah 5:8-22

• Unrestrained Greed (vs 8-10)
• Pursuit of Pleasure (vs 11-12)
• Religious Skepticism (vs 18-19)
• Moral Reversals (vs 20)
• Intellectual Arrogance (vs 21)
• Widespread Corruption (vs 22)

It is no surprise that we see these signs in our society today. Greed and Corruption are everywhere. The pursuit of pleasure obscures the view of what is truly important in life; and devalues true character. Religious skepticism is taken to the extreme in outright attacks. Moral reversals are the norm, where what is obviously wrong, is considered right; and what is right, is disdained. And, intellectual arrogance puts reasoning above revelation; instead of trying to find where the two complement and support each other. So, how do we live in the midst of a morally bankrupt society? We are urged to share the positive testimony and enjoy the benefits of a moral life; and to communicate God's love to those who are broken by sin.

Response

So, I wrote my letter of response to my "estranged" friend. I could no longer carry on the facade that all was well, and just be cordial if I happened to run into her, to politely thank her if she decided to send me a card, or to bring my hopes up every time there is the slightest hint that she was ready to renew the friendship. I could no longer tiptoe around her feelings, not knowing what is truly going on or where I stood. I likened the whole situation to driving full speed on the freeway, and then being asked to stop suddenly without knowing why I was asked to stop; and when I could take my foot off the brakes. I feel like I am suffering from the pain of whiplash, still stopped on the freeway, watching all the cars around me speed by. This is a precarious position to be in; and I need to know whether we can keep going; or whether, I should pull over and take the off-ramp. I am also concerned for her, not knowing what is truly going on. Is she struggling? Is she reaching out for help? I needed to know. I told her that no matter what, I will continue to keep her in my prayers, and that I am here for her. That's all I can do for now, as I wait......

After Christmas

Christmas has come and gone. The Christmas programs, the family gatherings, the parties, and celebrations are over. The decorations which were so joyfully and meticulously put up, now need to be taken down and stored away until next year. But, the after Christmas sales may continue go on until all the items in stock have been sold. Unfortunately, it was clear this year, that our difficult economic times have affected many people this year. I am grateful for God's provision in my life; and I do pray for those who are in need. I will continue to look for ways in which I can be most effective in helping others, with what resources I do have. I have been thinking of ways in which I can put my theme into action this year--how I can take risks and invest more deeply in the lives of others. I trust God to teach me this year; and to use me to reach out for HIM. In times like these, when it is easy to become cynical; it is a good reminder to focus on the true meaning of life. I look forward to seeing what God reveals to my class as we study Ecclesiastes and explore King Solomon's search for meaning and hear his conclusion. I did receive an ecard from one of my "broken friendships". I am in prayer for wisdom and the right words to say in my response. May God be at work to heal our friendship; and to help her through all that she is dealing with in her life. Well, I look back, and I do think that the most meaningful parts of Christmas this year were having my class as well as my family over to my house. I also enjoyed the Christmas programs; and I'm glad that I took the opportunities to serve, in spite of the background struggles. I am in anticipation of what God will do in my life this coming year. I see needs around me; I can see how my theme this year can be related; I have some ideas; I will just continue to pray and be open for God to guide me and use me. Amen.

Broken Friendship

I keep looking for closure. While it gets better over time, full closure is slow in coming. Does one ever truly get over a broken friendship? It's like the broken friendship bracelet... it may be able to be tied back together; but, it will never be like it was before; especially if a bead or two become lost in the process. I look back, and I don't really miss any part of the friendship. It was full of drama, it drained me of energy and resources, it was all one-sided, and I was the one who was constantly giving. Even the Cosmopolitan magazine article "Signs You Need to Dump a Pal" reinforce that it was no true "friendship". Similar to what is mentioned in the article, she is negative, constantly complaining about everything in her life; she would spend money on things rather than trying to save for what is necessary and never thinks to "give back" to those who have helped her; she is self-absorbed, never really cares about what is going on in other people's lives; never really wants to listen to differing opinions; she is jealous, rather than supportive of the successes of others; she is not someone you can trust, especially with personal information; and she has a long string of other broken "friendships." Even Scripturally, I have support that there are times when it is wisest to let go, when a relationship is too unhealthy. I hold nothing against her, I will always be available to help if she is ever in real need; and if she ever shows that she has truly changed, I would be willing to renew the friendship. But, until then, I need to be a good steward of all that God has given to me; and pouring it into a black hole is not the best use of the resources placed under my stewardship. The part that I have difficulty dealing with is rebuilding my trust in people and renewing my desire to help others. I entered this friendship with the desire to help a person that I thought was in need. I did everything I could to alleviate the difficulties in her life that she had been complaining about. I was there to provide a listening ear, to try to encourage and be supportive, to provide a nice place for her to live that was within her budget, and to be there for her. I look back, and I see how much I sacrificed - my time, my energy, my resources, my finances, myself..... I think that the worst part of it all, is that I feel like it was all "wasted." She shows no appreciation or recognition for any of it. I can only trust that I was being obedient to the LORD, that my heart was in the right place, and that God works in ways that I am not able to see. I have another broken friendship; but, that one is a little different. I still have a glimmer of hope that it may one day be restored. Also, I don't feel like that one was a total "waste." Even at the "end," she expressed appreciation; and over the years, she seemed to have noticed and recognized. While I think actions speak louder than words, and that she seems to have thrown all that away, I do think that she is struggling with other areas of her life. So, I keep praying for her; and hoping that one day she may recognize that having friends support you through difficult times is better than trying to endure it all alone. Through all of this, I just hope that I have grown through these experiences; that I have learned how to better be able to interact with those who are troubled. I don't think I've become hardened; and I am fortunate enough to have many healthy relationships that I know I can still trust. "Helps" is also still one of spiritual gifts; and I recognize the importance of still exercising that gift for the edification of the Body of Christ, the Church. Actually, in some ways, I can say that I am grateful for these trials. I have become a different person through them; and I have seen God work in ways that I had not previously experienced. Even the fact that I feel hurt and pain shows that I care; and love and compassion are a reflection of HIS characteristics. I know that trials are a part of life, while we are here in this fallen sinful world; and I am grateful that God is in control and that He "causes all things to work together for good to those who love HIM and are called according to His purpose."

Christmas Eve '08

Christmas Eve conjures up many thoughts, emotions, and memories. It means that Christmas is almost here; and I am filled with joyful anticipation. I've been able to finish wrapping all my gifts and sending all my cards; so, I can just enjoy the celebration of Christ's Birth. Some of my favorite memories of Christmas Eve as a child were when we would go to the First Congregational Church in L.A. for Candlelight Service. I loved the music in that church; and I always remember the recessional, as the choir would carry candles as they walked out; and then lined up on both sides of all walkway, ready to light our candles as we exited the church. It was a beautiful picture of sharing the light of the Savior with one another and with the rest of the world. My current church does not have a candlelight service; but, we will have a Christmas Eve service. One of the highlights is hearing my pastor sing "O Holy Night." What a great piece; and he has an amazing voice. Whenever I think of Christmas now, I not only remember the baby in the manger; but, I invariably see the Savior on the cross and the empty tomb, showing HIS power of sin and death. I am grateful that I worship the God who has resurrected from the dead; and has offered me the gift of salvation, justification from my sins, having paid the penalty on the cross. After having studied the Book of Romans this year, I have a better understanding of what that truly means; and I stand amazed at the great love of God! Amen!

Dreams'08

So, this year, I started off focused on dreaming God's Dreams, learning to see that God can do far more than we could ever ask or imagine. Having gone through the "God is Able" series, I saw how God used various Bible characters to do amazing things as part of HIS plan. I realized that it was my role to find what my part of God's Plan was, and to allow HIM to use me for HIS work. Since I am a very practical person, I don't often dream big dreams with child-like wonder and imagination. It took effort just to even dream a little; but, God is good; and as I look back, I can see HIM at work. Some of the dreams that I saw fulfilled this year were:

• The growth in my Sunday Adult Fellowship Class
• Being able to submit an written entry to a magazine for publication, and making it to the last round of consideration (I still do not yet know if it has been accepted though)
• Maintaining a separate blogsite that has had over 2,000 hits
• Being baptized in the Jordan River
• Travelling to Australia
• Finishing my Certificate in Apologetics at Biola
• Having the opportunity to teach the "God is Able" series to another group of people, in my Community Group, next year

So, next year, I look forward to seeing what new dreams will be glorified in:

• I would love to get involved consistently in a Community Service
• I would love to build deeper relationships and be able to touch more lives for God
• I would love to be able to develop my writing skills and expand into new areas

There are also some personal areas that I would like to explore.... continue my goal to travel to all continents (such as South America), continue my house remodeling projects, develop more in some areas of interest (music, dancing, some sport - maybe fencing or volleyball, cooking, etc). And wouldn't it be great if God would include THE ONE, as He writes my "love story." If I were to dream big Dreams, I would love to be able to travel the world, either supporting a spouse in some ministry like music; or being a guest speaker or author. Or maybe, just impacting the lives of many locally through a ministry or community outreach. No matter what, my hope is that I will glorify God in all that I say and do; and that He will be able to use me to further HIS Kingdom. Amen!

Christmas Concerts

I had the opportunity to go to three different Christmas Concert programs this weekend at three different Churches. I love music; and combined with the glorious sounds of Christmas and festive decorations, the concerts were absolutely enjoyable. My favorite moments were when the music led me to experience worship in the presence of God. I do wonder sometimes if that is a glimpse of what it will be like in Heaven. Great music always makes me wish that I were able to have the gift to be able to sing or play an instrument that beautifully. My favorite instrument is the organ. To be able to listen to a master organist on that grand instrument is amazing. I would've loved to hear Bach play; and because he composed all his music for the glory of God, he is one of my favorite composers. Friday's Christmas program at my Church was nice. It had a good message; and I had a chance to serve by running the projector during the message and the singing. Saturday's program was the best. The music director was in his 30th year of conducting Christmas programs at that Church; and it was noticeable. The orchestra played and the choir sang in harmony. The music was glorious and grand; and the musicians were talented. The message was interesting, utilizing the words of well-known Christmas hymns; and there was a variety of music - traditional, gospel, jazz, contemporary; orchestra, organ, handbells; adult, children, soloists, ensembles..... it was great! Sunday's program at my old church was nice also. I miss hearing the organ, orchestra, and choir on Sundays. Richard Unfried is one of my favorite organists and I've always loved his recitals. What stood out for me in the program, was the reminder when showing scenes from the Nativity movie, that God does sometimes speak in the "gentle whisper", like that of a child born in a humble manger. Also, that He watches over us to reassure us when we are in His will, despite difficult circumstances. I'm sure that Mary and Joseph must have had so many doubts as they travelled to Bethlehem, and then were unable to find a place to stay, and then had to give birth in a manger. But, what a reassurance it must have been to have so many visitors, such as the shepherds, and the wise men bearing gifts, showing them that this was no ordinary child. That's the scene that I always enjoyed at the EV Free Christmas program, the re-enactment of the Nativity Scene, when all the characters who came to visit baby Jesus, would all together kneel down to worship. They didn't do that scene yesterday; but, they showed the similar scene from the Nativity movie. It didn't quite have the same impact, though. Still, it was a good program, and a nice celebration of our Savior's Birth.

Leadership

As I previously wrote about, I've been developing my leadership skills because I have been put in such positions both at Church and at work. And as I contemplate what are the areas I have grown in, I find that there are some very specific things that I have learned. I know that I still have much to learn; but, figured that as I blog about it ongoing, I may see a progression of my growth over the years. So, at this point, in my initial limited view of leadership, the following is what I have seen are important:

• "Not passing the buck" - In the past, I have always shied away from making decisions, where possible. Of course, in everyday life, and in areas where I knew I had to, I would. However, if there was someone else who was in a position to make the decision, I would usually let them. Looking back, I mainly did not want to be responsible for making a bad decision, if that's how it turned out. Yet, now that I run projects and I teach class; the responsibility squarely falls on me. Interestingly, I have gotten somewhat used to making decisions now; and I'm pleased to find that I actually have good background, experience, and knowledge/wisdom to make good decisions. This also involves trying to solve and address problems and issues that come up, and not giving it over to someone else.
• "Navigating the waters" - This involves being able to understand how to interact with all different kinds of people; being wary where necessary; and in situations like work, this also translates to learning how to survive the politics. This takes understanding how all the various areas that you encounter function; and being able to see the big picture, not just one specific area.
• "Developing thick skin" - Anyone in positions of leadership are bound to encounter opposition and criticism. That's because you can never please everyone at all times. I think one of the most important components of this, is to be able to know what is the right thing to do, and to learn to stand firm in that, no matter what.
• "Delegating" - This is a very important part of leadership, especially as our role expands. There comes a point that we as one person will not be able to handle everything; and we need to be able to find the right people to help. This also involves being able to assign tasks and to track & follow-up on them. Even Moses was advised to delegate, when his responsibilities became too great.
• "Calm in the midst of a Storm" - A leader needs to be able to keep a calm level head through anything that comes up, enough to be able to make clear decisions on how to handle the situation.

It's been an interesting growth process; and over time, it will be neat to see how much more I grow and develop.

Not as Eager to Volunteer

I'm usually the person who would be one of the first to jump at opportunities to help, especially when there is a need; and often, even without having to be asked. So, I am struggling with what to do, since there is a need now; and this is a rare occasion where I am not so eager to volunteer. I ask myself, "What is the right thing to do?" That's a harder question to answer than "Why am I not eager to volunteer?" I already know why I am not eager to volunteer. It's because the person who oversees the area does not motivate us to want to help. In fact, he did the exact opposite by criticizing and offending. He made us feel like we were expendable and not needed. And when he tried to show appreciation, it was in such contrast to his previous actions and words, that we're not sure if he is sincere. So, if he doesn't consider that what we do is important, then we are no longer motivated to go out of our way to make sacrifices to help, as we have in the past. As for the right thing to do.... well, I know that I am serving God. So, if there is a need, I should not let one person deter me. I suppose I will no longer go out of my way; but, if I am able to, I can. So, I guess that answers the question. I will go ahead and volunteer. And I just need to make sure that the fact that I am not as eager, does not get in the way of my heart to serve.

Crusoe

The show "Crusoe" on NBC inspired me to read Robinson Crusoe by Daniel Defoe. It is such a familiar story that I don't really remember whether I've read it before; or that I may have read a children's version of it. For such a popular story, I am surprised to find that it is such "slow" reading. The wording does not flow; and the inherent adventure does not translate naturally into excitement in the story-telling. While the TV version does not adhere very closely to the book, it is certainly a lot more interesting and exciting. I hate to think that I've succumbed to this culture's attraction to the small screen, rather than reading words; but, I don't think I have. I generally love to read, and still do so frequently. I do think that the TV version makes it easier to visualize the interesting gadgets, his dwelling place, and the adventures. And it also involves a lot more people throughout the show, than the book does; which actually brings me to one of the main points that stuck out to me as I was reading. Often, Robinson Crusoe would talk about how he was now "king" of his island kingdom and had all that he needed, except for society. It makes me ponder the meaningfulness of living a life like that. Some of the most important parts of life are in the interactions with others. So, I would think that if I were stranded on an island, my motivation of continuing, would be to someday be once again among others and be able to share my experience of being alone on the island. I don't think I could become content with being "queen" of my kingdom without any hope of ever interacting with another human being again in my life. Yet, I would trust that God has a plan; and I would wait to see what He had in store. The TV version has the added appeal of having a main actor, Philip Winchester, who professes to be a practicing Christian. I applaud those who are able to stand firm in their faith in an industry that is generally contrary to the Christian worldview. And, in keeping with that, being a show that honors integrity and Christian values, it appears that Crusoe may not continue to be showing on air after these initial episodes. I do hope that the network does not go through with cancelling the show.

More Reflections

As I sit listening to Christmas music, my thoughts just naturally once again turn towards reflections upon the past year and looking towards the new year. I feel like I have grown this past year in several areas of my life. I have developed my leadership skills. In work, I've been able to establish my "niche" in project management; and have developed my ability to lead meetings and track projects. I've also learned to accept the responsibility of making decisions. I have also been able to develop my skills in leading my Adult Fellowship class. There is still much to learn; but, it's good to know that I am growing. I also look back upon last year's challenges; and see what a difference a year has made. My new renters are great; and I am encouraged to know that they are in ministry and I do hope that having a nice place to live that is close to church helps them in their ministry. The relationship I have with them are what I expected; and is such a nice contrast to the one I had previously. No longer is my life filled with drama and emotional turmoil in this area. I also receive more in rent, which really helps financially. I do sometimes "cringe" at how much I've apparently wasted in trying to help my previous renter; but, I trust that it was all part of God's plan somehow. I do know that I have grown so much through that experience. I also feel like I've matured in my perspective of friendships. While it may not be such a good thing to have lost that child-like trust in the goodness of others; the harsh reality of life is that it is necessary to have a wary knowledge of the imperfections of others, even in close "friends". I also have a better understanding of who my true friends are now. The scars from previous wounds have made for "thicker skin". Yet, this does not mean that I have given up on taking risks to invest in the lives of others. On the contrary, I will continue to do so; but, hopefully, now with more wisdom. I also have a renewed confidence in my independence. This time around, in dealing with contractors when changing my windows, I was able to benefit from my experience in the past. I also no longer wonder about Mr "Not-Quite-Right"; and have an almost ethereal assurance and peace in waiting for Mr Right, whether or not he exists. And, I went on the Israel trip with Insight for Living on my own; and enjoyed it. I am at peace and I can see that God is still at work in me.

Realization

There is nothing like coming face-to-face with the brevity of life that causes a person to come to the realization of what is truly important. I went to the Memorial Service for a friend this weekend. She had been battling with melanoma for the past two years; but, with such strength of faith and peacefulness of spirit. In her service, we were reminded of her ministry with children and her great desire to bring them to the knowledge of the Savior. Even in the midst of grieving, her husband said that he hoped the Memorial Service would be one of evangelism to those who did not yet know God. We could see how she had touched the lives of those around her. I honor her memory and consider it a blessing to have known her. I am glad that she is in the presence of Christ for His Birthday Celebration this year. I also went to visit another friend in the hospital last night. He is suffering from a weakened heart that is no longer functioning at full capacity. He is such a wonderful example of a servant of God, one who is reliable, responsible, and caring. Even in the hospital, I could see his loving spirit; and the many visitors that he has had testifies to what a special person he is. I pray for God's Healing Hand upon his life; and His strength and wisdom to help him take care of his health. Occurrences such as these help to remind me about what life is really about. Our time here on earth is truly temporal; and we need to live for the eternal. It is important to invest in the lives of others; which fits well with my theme for next year "Be Not Afraid". Investment can often be a risk; but, I should not be afraid and should trust God to be at work. I will run with endurance this race that is set before; and when I finish the race, I want to be able to look back and know that I have been able to touch the lives around me for God. Amen.

Dark Knight

As part of the Cinematics program at church, we had a discussion of the Dark Knight last evening. It was sponsored by Wheatstone Academy, and John Mark Reynolds was the speaker. He made his usual assertions that we need to look for "goodness, truth, and beauty"; and that we should not be caught up in being "edu-tained"; but, to pull away from the virtual reality and recognize what is truly real around us. In terms of films, he suggested that we should view films openly, while still thinking critically; and also, to be accountable to know what we personally can and cannot handle viewing. Specific to Dark Knight, he pointed out how the director controls our perspective and how the music affects the impact. We talked about the use of color. We also talked about the lack of emotion displayed by everyone except the Joker, and consequently how at the end people seem to identify or sympathize more with the Joker than any other character. We talked about how there is no use of greenery and natural beauty while depicting Gotham, possibly to depict the dark, cold, rigid environment. And while we talked about the use of square framing of scenes and close-ups, as a reflection of our society's familiarity with viewing through a "small screen"; I thought the square framing seemed to reflect the stoic coldness of the characters giving a contrast to the Joker's erratic and more "colorful" personality. We viewed the scenes where the people did not enable the detonators, as reflections of Christian morals displayed in the film. It was interesting when John Mark Reynolds said that because God is the Creator, there is nothing in this world that is totally and wholly evil. I could see that while we all have a sinful nature, yet, we still bear that image of God within us, however marred by sin. One thing that was mentioned, that I may not totally agree with was, that when people sin they actually set out to do good; but, they either do it too much or don't do it well. The reason I disagree is because, with the sin nature, there is no one who does good or wants to do good. Not all sin is just too much of a good thing. But, I do believe that all sin is a belief in a lie. Well, it was interesting to discuss the movie critically. I do think it is helpful to evaluate all things in this way; so, that we will not be unaware when something else sways what we think or perceive. That is one of the goals of the Truth 101 class, to help us all gain the perspective of the Christian Worldview; and be able to critically assess all that is around us through that filter of truth.

Spiritual Gift of Teaching

It has occurred to me in this past year that God has been preparing me all my life for teaching my Truth 101 Career Adult Fellowship class at church. That may sound a lot more astounding and significant than I intend it to; but, in an unassuming practical way, I have found it to be true. Firstly, He has repeatedly affirmed my spiritual gift of Teaching. It's been challenged several times, particularly when faced with the questions of whether or not women should teach. However, every time I have served as a teacher or facilitator in a class, a fellowship group, a mentoring situation, or in a Bible Study; I've seen how God has used me effectively through it. It is something I enjoy doing; and it comes naturally to me. So, I've actually been teaching and leading studies in some form or another, now for about 20 years. All the experience I've gained is now being used as I teach. I needed that background and experience, in order to have given me the confidence necessary to be willing to start this new class in the first place. Also, I realized that the lessons I learned, from teaching groups all these past years, about letting the Spirit work and not worrying about numbers or visible results; helped me to persevere through the first year we struggled to get Truth 101 off the ground. Now, it is a strong, healthy, solid group of people who love to study the Word and fellowship with each other. Praise God! I also had long wondered why God allowed me to be interested in so many areas related to marriage, family, relationships, and psychology; and to have listened for so many years to Focus on the Family, and read so many books on these topics. I was especially baffled as the years went by, and I remained single. I thought I wouldn't have a chance to put any of this into practice; until I started teaching this class. As a teacher, I have found that I am often put in situations where I may need to offer advice in areas that I may not have any personal experience. While I have been able to use what I've learned in the past, I see clearly now, that as a teacher in a new growing church, it is especially helpful. Another area of my life that I had struggled with, and now see it as part of God's plan for me to be the teacher in the Truth 101 class is that related to Psalm 73. For years, I did wonder why the wicked seemed to prosper and whether it was in vain that I kept my heart pure. I knew that it was good to seek holiness and to live in obedience; but, when I looked around me and saw other people seemingly having more "fun", I wondered if I was being to stringent. However, I now truly appreciate that I have tried to walk the narrow path as closely as possible, since teachers often serve as examples and are "held to a higher standard." This is not to say that those who have a "colored" past couldn't be a good teacher. In fact, many can draw on their negative experiences to have an extremely powerful message. However, I do think that God would want teachers who have tried to live a pure and holy life, and can be an example to those they teach. So here am I, pleased to find that I am well-suited for this position God has placed me in. Even as I am developing leadership skills in my professional life, I am able to apply some of those skills to being a teacher in my class. I'm able to incorporate things I've learned through the Apologetics program and the Truth Project. I love being able to be used by God to help others grow in knowledge of HIM.

End-of-the-Year Thoughts

It's that time of the year when I invariably begin to start thinking about what happened throughout the year; and about what I might expect for the coming year. I'm sure that over the next month or so, I will have several more such contemplations. I've had quite a full year. I participated in the life events of friends - weddings, funerals, and anniversary celebrations. I worked on my house - started painting the garage, changed the windows and patio doors, and bought a new HDTV. I saw my Career Adult Sunday School class quadruple in size. I finished the Apologetics Certificate program at Biola. One renter moved out of my condo property; and a new one moved in. And, I would say that two of the highlights of my year were probably my trips to Israel and to Australia. I didn't really expect to go back to Israel again this year; but, I saw the flyer from Insight for Living; and took the opportunity. I'm so glad I did; for, it really was a neat trip and I had the privilege of being baptized by immersion in the Jordan River. I also thoroughly enjoyed hearing Pastor Chuck Swindoll preach; and listening to the great music of the piano duo Nielson & Young. Australia is somewhere I've wanted to go to for a very long time. Sydney was beautiful; and I had the great privilege of being able to go to both an Opera and a Concert at the Sydney Opera House. As for what I may expect the coming year, I hope to see my class grow closer together. People in the class are already actively serving in the church; but, it would be neat to see how we might be even more effective serving together as a class. I have more plans for work on the house; and I would be interested to see what new areas of service the LORD will bring me into. I would like to form deeper relationships and make more of an impact for the Kingdom in the lives of those around me.

Newsweek on Gay Marriage

Newsweek published an article in which it claimed that what the Bible teaches about love argues FOR gay marriage. As I read the article, there were two areas of objection that kept popping up in my mind. Firstly, most of the examples used were the exception, rather than God's design; and secondly, many of the Bible verses were quoted out of context. The first example used was Abraham sleeping with his servant when he discovered his wife Sarah was infertile. But, the article did not point out that the Bible shows that Abraham was wrong in bearing Ishmael through his servant, because he did not trust God to fulfill His promise; and that God fulfilled His promise when Sarah gave birth to Isaac. Other examples used were of polygamy, but, God never showed approval for it; and the article did not point out that the Bible shows all the negative effects of polygamy on those who practiced it. The article even used Jesus being single as an example. But, Jesus came to earth to be the Savior, and the Church is metaphorically the Bride of Christ. So, there was a purpose for Jesus being single; but, this was a special situation and should not be used to indicate anything about God's design for marriage in general. The apostle Paul was similarly an "exception" rather than the "rule"; in that his ministry caused him to constantly be on travel to his missionary journeys, to be imprisoned, and to have his life in danger. So, for his ministry, he had the gift of celibacy, and may have been more effective in singleness. Again, that does not change God's design for marriage. If the article, by citing these examples of exception, are trying to make an argument that gay marriage should be allowed as just another exception; the problem with that is the Bible does not support any of the exceptions that go against God's design either. Just because it occurs in society does not mean that it is right. This goes back to existing discussions about absolute truth versus relative social laws, and ethics versus morality. So, for example, even though society has made it legal to have an abortion, the absolute truth is that killing is wrong, and therefore the destruction of human life in the womb is wrong. The Bible has clearly stated that homosexuality is a sin and goes against God's design, such as in Romans 1:27: "And in the same way also the men abandoned the natural function of the woman and burned in their desire toward one another, men with men committing indecent acts and receiving in their own persons the due penalty of their error" Then, as for Scripture being quoted out of context, we can often cite verses to support our viewpoint, but, by not taking into the context of the whole Bible, the verses can be misinterpreted. So, for example "There is neither Greek nor Jew, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Jesus Christ." was used in the article to support gay marriage because of it's inclusiveness. The passage in Galatians 3:28 was talking about "inclusiveness", but not for marriage. It was specifically referring to the salvation through Jesus Christ. The arguments about being loving, inclusive, and accepting the opinion of society can be used to condone many things. However, when something goes against the design of God, the Creator, we cannot just say that it is right. In Genesis, God's design for marriage was clearly one man and one woman. And studies support this by showing that the best environment for children is one in which they have one father and one mother.

Be Not Afraid

I've found my verse for next year's area of focus. I was reminded of this verse that I had previously memorized:

"For God hath not given us a spirit of timidity; but of courage, of love and of a sound mind."--2 Tim. 1:7.

That summarizes well the various aspects of what I was looking for - to be unafraid, to have boldness, to be willing to take risk because of love, and of course, to have a sound mind, which to me includes wisdom.

I'm excited, because this ties in well with when God encouraged Joshua to be strong and courageous, such as in Chp 1 vs 9, "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid: do not be discouraged, for God is with you wherever you go." Many times in Scripture, we see the phrases, "Fear not" and "Do not be afraid". God may have just revealed to me what the next summer Bible Study series will be.....

Christmas'08

Christmas is definitely here. It's easy to get caught up in the busy-ness of the Season; but, I do try to make sure that I do not lose sight of the true reason and meaning for it all. On Saturday, I went to a Christmas Repast at EV Free Fullerton. As usual, it was very beautiful, creative, and well-organized. I had a chance to spend time with some friends; and I even ran into an old "friend" that I am praying for. I also started getting some ideas for my area of focus next year, somewhere along the lines of being bold and unafraid for God, being willing to take risks for Him. But, one thing in particular that stood out for me, was when the niece of Hugh Martin spoke of his conversion to Christianity and consequently his re-writing lyrics to his well-beloved Christmas song "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas". She sang the new lyrics:

Have yourself a blessed little Christmas
Christ the King is born
Let your voices ring upon this happy morn

Have yourself a blessed little Christmas
Serenade the Earth
Tell the world we celebrate the Savior's birth

Let us all proclaim the joyous tidings
Voices raised on high
Send this carol soaring up into the sky,
This very merry blessed Christmas lullaby.

Let us gather to sing to Him
And to bring to Him our praise
Son of God and a Friend of all
To the end of all our days

Sings hosannas, hymns, and hallelujahs
As to Him we bow
Make the music mighty as the heav’ns allow
And have yourself a blessed little Christmas now.

Such a neat story, and I love the new lyrics. I have printed it out and will use it whenever I sing to the tune of "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" Last night, I also had my fellowship class over for lunch. It was a nice time and I had a chance to show my pictures of the Holy Land.

O Death where is thy sting?

Handel's Messiah has long been my all-time favorite musical masterpiece ever. So, I was very interested this week to study the passage from which Handel took the words for "O Death where is thy sting?" In Hosea 13:14, right in the middle of pronouncing severe judgment and denouncing Israel's sinful behavior, God shows His great love and His desire for them to be saved:

"I will ransom them from the power of the grave; I will redeem them from death. Where, O death, are your plagues? Where, O grave, is your destruction?"

And Paul, quoting from the LXX version, at the end of his great dissertation on the centrality of the Resurrection in Christianity in I Corinthians 15:55, used that words that Handel incorporated into his musical piece:

"Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?"

How amazing that God, even as He had to justly execute the due punishment for Israel's sin, was looking forward towards the hope of redemption and salvation. And how true, as Paul said, that if there is no resurrection, then our faith is useless, for there would be no victory over sin and death. And, since the resurrection is so central and critical to Christianity, how assuring it is to know that Christ's resurrection is supported by evidence and facts. As Lee Strobel, author of The Case for Easter: Journalist Investigates the Evidence for the Resurrection, pointed out in a lecture, the resurrection can be supported by 4 "E"s:

• Execution - Historically, it is well-documented that Jesus Christ was crucified and was buried
• Early Accounts - The news of his death and resurrection are documented so soon after it occurred that there was no time for "legend" to develop; and the documentation had to be accurate, for those who had been there were still living and would be able to refute any inaccuracies
• Empty Tomb - It is well-documented that the tomb is empty and the facts support the resurrection as the best explanation
• Eyewitnesses - There were many eyewitnesses over a period of time at different places

The resurrection is not only central to Christianity, but, it can also show that Christianity is true. Since the Gospels are accepted as historically reliable documents, and in them, Christ made claims to divinity and his death and resurrection are recorded there; that when the resurrection occurred (the best explanation of the facts as mentioned above), it supported Christ's claims to be God. If He is God, then what He says is true; and since He supported and quoted the Old and New Testaments, then what is recorded in the Bible is not to be ignored.

It's Beginning to Look a lot like Christmas....

Christmas is one of my favorite times of year, right next to Easter. Usually, I put up my decorations right after Thanksgiving; but, since I was out of town this year for the Thanksgiving weekend, I just finished putting them up inside the house last night. The Nativity scenes, the pine, the beautiful colors, and the smells all evoke warm feelings of Peace and Joy. I know that the Holiday Season can be a difficult time of year for many people; and being an unattached single, I could be considered one of those people. But, as Thanksgiving reminds me, I really do have much to be thankful for; and most of all, Christmas is when Christ came to earth in order to become my Savior. So, how can I not be filled with the Christmas Spirit. This year, I am not only having my family over for Christmas Dinner; but, I have also invited my Sunday Fellowship Class to come over for lunch this weekend. I enjoy hosting, and fortunately have gained much experience from all the bridal showers, baby showers, Birthday gatherings, and family get-togethers that I have organized. I hope that when people enter my home, they may feel warmth, love, peace, and joy; and be reminded of the true meaning of Christmas.