Balance or Mediocrity?

There's an old Chinese saying that one can have many knives but not one of them sharp.   In many ways, I feel like that describes me.   I've striven hard to maintain balance in my life, but, I wonder if that was at the expense of not excelling at any one thing?   So, I ask, is it Balance or Mediocrity?    I don't like to think of it as mediocrity; and it really isn't.   While I may not excel at anything, I believe that I do many things well, and I'm not typically satisfied with just being average.   More than that, it's not that I didn't pursue excellence, but, it could be that this is the best that I could do.   Does that mean that the level of excellence could be different for each person?  Maybe.   On the other hand, Excelling seems to imply that there is a comparison with something or someone else; so, it may need to be considered relative to others.

So, why is it that I feel that I don't excel?   Well,
I am intelligent, but not brilliant
I am musical, but am not gifted
I can lead, but am not charismatic
I can teach, but may not inspire
I am pretty, but not beautiful
I can write, but not soar
I can speak, but am not eloquent
I can cook, but am not a gourmet chef
I am creative, but not an artist
I am fairly successful, but not wealthy
I have friends, but don't think I'm beloved
I can play sports, but am not an athlete
And so forth......

Should I try harder to excel in one area?  Would that hurt other areas?   Should I not be content with balance?  Or do I really feel the need to excel?     I don't have the answer to these.  But, then, at what point is it considered "excelling"?   Is it being best in the world?  Being in the top certain percentage?   I have received awards academically and professionally.  Would that be considered excelling?   It appears that "excelling" can be relative depending upon one's goals.

Maybe, I should be content with pursuing excellence in all areas of my life, giving glory to God and maintaining proper balance.  And then, just trust that I will excel if it is in His Will.